My depression is becoming overwhelming. I am not going to work at this point. I wake up so depressed that I can't stand the pain. This has been going on a long time and it's getting worse. I am faced with deciding about retiring from a job I need but that I can barely do.
I have been let down the my doctor, the suicide hotline and my counsellor. I'm really desperate. I don't know what to do. The little distraction stuff doesn't work. I'm broken. My life is broken. It's just reality. I need someone to help me. I have no friends or relationship. I WANT to die to end the pain but my body still keeps going. Makes no sense.
Does overthinking lead to depression? What do you think? And why?
Due to all the anxiety y I have been having, I am now having suicidal thoughts. I have access to medications to do it. I'm kaying in bed fantasizing over downing a bottle. cooing skills aren't helping neither is the crisis line. I just need to fall asleep already so I can call my dr in the morning.