I am so sorry to hear about the kidneys. What has your specialist decided you need to do? Are you on a kidney transplant list? How often do you have dialysis?

Have they given you a dietician or anything yet?

how are they treating you at the doctor's? Do you feel they're looking after you?

As to the counsellor; unless she were to feel you were in denial, and blocking, about your past, there is no reason for her not to be there for you in the way that you need. Which is to say, YOU pay HER. I can't believe you can't go in and talk to her about whatever you need to discuss, because she's got some anal little linear plan and won't talk about this prior to that. Maybe SHE'S the one with the problem.

I think everyone here can handle anything you say. xx

I see my nephrologist every 3 months and he does blood work to monitor my kidney function. I am on a transplant list but I have to wait until my function is a little lower before I can get a transplant. I can not do dialysis because they have no way of getting the port in me. They have already tried to put a fistula in my arm but it closed 3 days after they put it in because my veins are too small and they can't do any of the others for other reasons so my only option is a transplant but I have a not so common blood type so my chances of finding a match are pretty slim. I've worked with a nutritionist but because of the kidney disease I don't have much of an appetite not to mention I get sick multiple times a day and that's even with nausea medicine. I like my kidney doctor, and I do feel he cares and is doing is very best. He's also one of the top 2 doctors in the state that I live in so I know he's one of the very best. He said that in all of his years of practice (over 30) he has never seen the type of kidney disease I have and he's seen a lot. All of my doctors in my life have always said that when it comes to medical issues I'm not normal that I'm different which makes it hard to help me.

As for my counsellor, she seems to know what she's doing and the EMDR has helped a lot with my past so I'm just trying to hang in there but it's just really hard right now. Like I said I have many other things on my plate besides the kidneys that I'm trying to deal with. I just don't know how much longer I can keep hanging on.

Your therapist sounds incompetent. Forcing you to go chronologically when you have a serious health issue like that, I'd ditch that therapist in a heart beat. At least try another to see if you can find a better fit. This one doesn't sound like one. Just my impression. I wouldn't let a therapist dictate a session that way.