Its been a while, not sure why, but I cant enter daily strength from Spain. Things have changed for me, we now have a 6 month old baby called Sandra.
The best moments of my life have been when I play with her and I can see that she is going to be a good girl and intelligent.
Times are really tough, I have lost the job I am supposed to have now and I have no money coming in, the Spanish goverment is not willing to help me out and on top of that the inlaws dont want me coming back to their house over cultural differences and my wife seems to take their side, I should have a teaching job starting in September but it looks like it will be the start of a second wave.
I feel seriously suicidal, I thought these sort of thoughts would go away after having a child but they havent, in fact I now feel guilty on top of it as I am trying my best to find a way to earn an income and nothing is working.
I am in the Uk at the moment, mum said she will lend me some money but the bank has blocked her account and said she cant transfer me the cash as she is bed ridden and has no way of entering the bank, they said yesterday they would send someone out from the bank yesterday to prove it was her, but all they did was send out the police so her account is still blocked.
I told my wife that this was a nightmare situation for me and all she could respond was that I am being pathetic and now i have a child that I should grow up. She has the support of her family and she is working and is not helping me out.
Hopefully things change soon.
I had to laugh at me.I deleted something and had a panic attack. Didn't realize how high my anxiety was until it happened.Drinking some liquid, even breathing, and laughing as the anxiety disappeared naturally.
That I just need support or that I just need a hugI saw this recently somewhere else where a person really wanted nothing other then support from members and asking for what you want is a good thingWe often offer our thoughts on whatever a topic is about that's posted however sometimes members just need to know they're supported and we don't always know that if it isn't postedAsking for what we...