Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am feeling very very depressed and anxious. I decided to read some posts here for inspiration. I keep seeing over and over the advice to talk to a therapist, try medication... I have talked to so many therapists and none have helped me. I have such a negative opinion of the medical community that I just have a hard time believing anyone has really gotten any help. Just to give you some background so you understand maybe a little why I feel so hopeless when I think of seeking help (mental or physical), I lost two infants to crib death, both had gone to the doctor within days of their death for well baby checkups. I had two collapsed lungs, the doctors found no reason. I had severe cystic acne that nothing could be done for (horrible for self esteem), I lost my dad to cirrhosis (alcohol) even though he sought help forever it seems. I was diagnosed with uterine cancer 3 years ago and the doctor I had was so unsupportive it was crazy, I still don't know my prognosis, I do know I had none of the risks assotiated with this cancer. I just read a report on a breast biopsy that I had done 1 1/2 years ago, I was told everything was fine, but the report says it needed to be rechecked in 6 months, o well. I have suffered severe depression all my life and cannot get any help. My sister has bipolar depression and her doctor has her so drugged she is mistaken for a junkie. My other sister just got out of the hospital after two weeks, all her organs were shutting down, eventually they started her on antibiotics at my famlies insistence, she got better but there is still no diagnosis. I have been told I have IBS which the doctors cant explain or do much about, this is so debilitating its hard to hold a job.
I am very negative I know, my live in boyfriend says I am negative and that I dont want to get better. I know I want help but I just think that I am so insignificant that doctors do not even try to help. I fee l that I am so worthless that no one will even care to help.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with a completely new health system. I am going because my boyfriend and my adult children are under the impression that someone can help. I don't want to go, if I get cancer again, I will not have chemicals put in me. I know they can't help my mental issues.
I think I have absolutely no reason to go. Yet here I am thinking that someone here can help me, I always think there will be a happy ending when I know there isn't. Now that's crazy thinking.
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I got an email from Kohl's that I had a 40% off coupon for today and tomorrow only. It took me about an hour but I placed an order and got some great deals. I have been wanting a new dress. I like dressing up sometimes. My birthday is coming up and I have dinner plans at a nice restaurant. But, honestly, I'm a little out of control again. I went through this in the fall. I bought...
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Has anyone else noticed that clearly speaking and doing things intentionally is liberating because it helps combat the feeling of depression and a sense of hopelessness? Let me share a little more: in my experience, when those who have tried to project a hidden agenda that is obviously not aligned with integrity and well-being, it's best to be firm and speak clearly from self-awareness and...
With all that you mentioned, it would be good to go to the doctor so that you can find out what is going on in your body. You need a primary doctor that you regularly see. IBS can be difficult to live with that is why you need to keep searching for the right doctor that will care for you and your health. From what you mentioned, health issues seem to run in your family. For your health and your life you have to start to think more positively. The laws of attraction, you think negatively you attract negative things, you think positively positive things attract to you. Do things to build up your self-worth and self-esteem. Replace negative thoughts with positive ones. Ex. negative thought "I'm worthless" replace it with positive thought "My life matters" "I am somebody." You kill a negative thought by speaking something positive and you keep doing this until that negative thought has been replaced. It is not something that will happen overnight but you have to be consistent. Kick depression out of your life, when you get up in the morning open the blinds, put on encouraging music, think about things that are good, true, and lovely. Your life has meaning and your are loved.
Peter, I agree, it almost seems like a scam running to the doctors. It seems hit or miss if they actually help. I just lost both my ex in-laws, he at 97, she at 98. They never went to a doctor until about a year before their death. I find it odd that when I am sent to a Physch doctor the insurance determines before the first visit how many visit I should need. How do they know before I am evaluated? It is all a money game.
I went to my doctor appointment because my daughter would not let up. The Doctor was very nice, but I need another mammogram. It terrifies me. What can they do if it is anything???? I will not be given any chemicals. And because of my crappy insurance, the Dr was nice enough to tell me that it would be difficult getting a good cancer doctor, but she would try. Great.
I jsut find it incredibly odd that people are so sure there is a God, if this is what a God wanted for me it is not a good God.
I understand the nature of depression is negative and many people deal with it. My temperament is melancholy (negative). I refuse to be this way, is it easy to resist no it isn't. But I am determined, many of the great artists have been identified as melancholy. I purpose to make the weaknesses of this temperament positive. Since you mentioned God, I can tell you He did not give you depression that is from the devil. It is not God's will for you to be depressed but if you do not believe in Him or His word then He can not help you. There are plenty of Scriptures that address depression, anxiety, and fear. King David had to encourage himself in the Lord when he found himself depressed. If you have tried everything else why not try God, what do you have to lose? Ask Him if He is real to prove Himself to you. His will is to heal you, Jesus paid the price for your depression over 2000 years ago, but the devil don't want you to believe that so that you can do just what you are doing suffering from depression. God is a loving God, who gave His only son that we all could have life. He is the reason that I live and am able to face each and every day. Your life has purpose and meaning. I'm not trying to push my faith on you nor am I trying to sell you on it. Read Jeremiah 29:11 God speaking: For I know the thoughts I think toward you, thoughts of God and not evil; to give you a good and expected in. I will end because I don't want to preach to you but know this I love you and I am praying for you. Depression, I command you to live her life in the mighty name of Jesus. Lord, as you have done for me, do for my sister because You are no respect of person. I know that it is not Your will for her to suffer from depression and anxiety. Thank You, Lord in Jesus name, amen.
https://www.fisherwallace.com/pages/depression-treatment?gclid=CInppOfd8tMCFZaEaQod8nEGZA
The link from Renesroom112 looks interesting, but I am sure it is expensive, I will look into it.
Thanks
The day you became a believer, you became a target for the enemy. His job is to kill, steal, and destroy. He attacks us because he knows God loves us and he wants to hurt God because he got kicked out of heaven. Again, I would encourage you to read the scriptures dealing with fear, anxiety, and depression as well as other supports that are available to you.
On the other hand sometimes you meet someone that you feel that you can trust and you make some strides.
I truly believe that you have to do this for you and at the right time.
I have become very negative too. I have had so many health issues and most days I feel like I am pushing a boulder up hill.
Get some rest and think about what you want to do. Good Luck