Before I withdrew from society, MM, I was a friend to a lot of people. I was smart, talented, everyones go-to person. Then I was involved in a car crash with an uninsured driver and no one would even offer me a ride. I won a lawsuit then she filed bankruptcy to avoid paying me and I had a stroke. All I got from anyone was a few sympathetic words.

I had always been the strong one, the smart one, missfixit. If I did not know the answer, I knew where to look for it.

That was three years ago. Yesterday I bumped into a person I knew back then. He been wanting to talk with me about something he thought I could do for him. I told him about my current situation and he acted like he might be interested in buying my vehicle, but I think that is because he wants something from me, and probably wont buy the vehicle.

I am not lonely; have never said I am lonely. I choose to be alone, a LONER. I am fed up with people. Everyone wants something for nothing.

I am struggling with depression over the long series of mostly just plain unfair events I have had to cope with the last three years. No pill is going to fix that. I am in therapy.

The car wouldn't start this morning but I managed to reach a cousin that lives about 20 minutes away from me. He came and took me to work, then picked me up after and we went looking for me a car but didn't find anything that is going to fit in my budget when I am unemployed.

I am so grateful that God has connected me with Jason. He happens to be unemployed and can lend a hand when needed, but he has his struggles with depression over not being able to find a job. I think I may be helping him .feel needed and useful.

Hey sixtyplus. I too will be in your shoes maybe sooner than later. I'm an only child and really can barely tolerate my relatives for my parents and my child's sake, but I'm not close to any of them. My daughter is 18 and living away from home at college, my parents are aging and will pass most likely before me. I hope you find what you need here. I can't imagine not being able to drive. That does limit your contact with others. I also understand the not wanting to be in a romantic relationship, that makes me go EWWW too.

What I need most is someone to talk to, I think. Someone who may have had similar experiences and can relate how they handled them.
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The faith based therapy I am receiving and a lot of prayer helps

Hugs is all I can give you.
I understand you.
Hope this site helps you.

Thank you hips.

I am not feeling real great this morning. It is payday but most of my check will be gone as soon as I cash it. In the long run, my job will end when Christmas is done, and prospects for another are slim to none in this small town.

Pray with me that I'll have no more unexpected expense with my car.

The day went well, but business was slow. I cashed my check, made a small deposit toward bills coming up, bought gas for the car, pigeon holed money for two three Christmas gifts, two bills that must be paid this week and a small contribution to Church in the morning. I have a few dollars left in my pocket for needed groceries this week. Things could be a lot worse. I am Thankful.

I'm a bit younger than you, but I feel the same as you do. I've had intermittent depression throughout some of my life; but over the last 6 months I had several losses one after the other. It didn't seem there was anything worth living for. I lost friends due to death & relocation, my brother, and what hurt the most was losing a cat I loved more than anything in the world, unexpectedly and suddenly at only 9 yo.

I've always been a loner, more or less, but also enjoy people when I chose to. But now I live alone in a nice house in a nice city, and I've never felt like this before. Rationally, I feel that if someone gave me a cocktail to go to sleep peacefully (llike my cat) I would. I've done a lot of thinking about it and most people think I'm just depresse because of all the losses and feel for me but it's more than that. I've changed. I'm just not the same person. I don't want to make it to 72. Congratulations! I've always known that life isn't fair and bad things happen to good people, but I was always strong enough eventually to see things through.

I'm the saddest person in the whole world right now. I'm not suffering physically, but mentally, things have gotten to me. I can empathize with how you feel. That's all i can say.

There will always be ups and downs. But this downer has lasted three years. It is time for a change! I am too old to have to handle this alone.

I am too healthy to move into an assisted living center where someone does everything for you.

I am hoping this year I will get the loans paid off, buy a better car and rebuild some savings for when I really cannot work any more.