Do'nt kill yourself! Your kids need you.

You are the reason some one is alive today. Thy need u to stay alive. Don’t give up.

I'm So sorry you are hurting. Drugs and alcohol are very powerful and very addicting and very hard to stop doing.
You can't change the past but you can change your future!!
It takes a lot of courage to admit our mistakes. Work hard, get clean ,Don't give up on yourself. EVER!!
I wish you the best. Stay in touch. I would love to hear how your doing.

Well I imagine you had a pretty crap experience of life to want to get high and drink???

They are the solution right???

Pretty rubbish that society didn't support you and help you recover. Let society take some of the blame!!!

Go join the twelve step fellowship nothing like twice daily meetings brainwashing you into being sober! Work the twelve steps take part, it does work usually if God is involved. Although you get loads in there who don't work the steps with God and they how make it

Basically you have a physical allergy to drink and drugs and once you have the first drink or hit.... You compulsively use with an inability to stop

Then there is the mental blank spot, where a form of insanity prevents you from remembering the awful consequences of even a week ago and you get somehow tricked into drinking and using again

It is insane to do something harmful again and again

Go do the twelve steps. I personally learnt to email someone whenever I wanted to relapse and I would get through

You can do it, it can be done, you can be free from the obsession to drink and drug

Heck, come see me I'll take you through the steps in a weekend

No need to feel bad about this anymore there is a solution, your genetic illness with regards to drink and drugs has a solution

Go do it

Accept the past, it will help others one day, it will be the keys to their salvation

You can sort all this pain out,

Time to calm down that's the first step.

Deep breaths

Plenty of people hit situations that make them want to die because they want the painful situation to end

But that doesn't have to be you

You have options

You can change yourself by

Accepting the problem

You can change the problem

And if you read the "Road Less travelled" you will note that problems as a norm take long term action to overcome, just people aren't educated that such perseverance is often required
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Or abandon the problem

Or you can continue to suffer

I know it's tempting to go with the flow of your feelings, but sometimes a bit of logic instead of feeling makes tough times easier to get through and pass

"i failed them.by giving them up for drugs and alcohal."

So the solution is NOT to kill yourself, .. it is to dump the drugs and alcohol by whatever conventional means.

Killing yourself would harm those kids MORE ... for LIFE. Take all three ... suicide, drugs, alcohol off your table and start having a JOYFUL life.