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Do not give up. We care.

Many of us have been to the place you find yourself in now. Focus on connecting first, which you are doing courageously here. You are one of God's own and I know you can rise to a new and better day if you just don't give up. Successful suicides only live on as a bad example. Those who endure can bless others and grow and find out why God made them.
It takes more courage than to suffer through horrific inner hells then to die.
Immeasurable riches lie ahead. Don't give up now!

Yes, please don't give up! I am where you are right now and it sucks, it's hard, everything feels endlessly dark and hopeless, but please don't give up! Do anything you can, message us here, take a trip somewhere, do ANYthing, just please don't give up! We are all here and willing to talk. Message me and tell me what's going on. Keep fighting this, keep breathing, I promise there are better days ahead but you must be around to see them! Hang in there, please. You are important even if the depression is telling you that you're not.

Look, if all you have is depression, or mental illness then hang on and Imean hang on. Be careful with meds and if possible stay far far away from them. The reason I say this is my life got screwed up the ass by a dr that nnearly killed me and now I have to finish myself off.
If all you have is a natural illness and your body never got destroyed by big pharma meds then hang on! Are you in Toronto? They have awesome help like camh etc. I wish I lived in Toronto, since the dr's where I live moonlight at mcdonalds on the weekend. Seriously, I hope your life isn't too bad but believe me, if you want to screw your life up, keep taking meds that were never tested longer than 6 months. I guarantee you the only person more suicidal than me, is dead already.
Btw, committing suicide takes guts and I mean GUTS! Follow the path of least resistance and stay alive. Staying alive is the easy way to go trust me on this. It's takes balls the size of Texas to do yourself in and if you aren't successful, you might be in a far worse place than you are now.
You are pretty young and I hope you have a good dr and not some a-hole pill pusher, depression isn't caused by a lack of prozac and believe it or not, drug manufacturers are more interested in selling you meds than seeing you better. I would love to torture a big pharma ceo with my bare hands and I am not really joking nor should I have to be.
If you are on meds and suicidal, obviously they aren't working, try to get ahold of a therapist where you can talk about things and keep in touch with help lines and even prayer lines. You can get through this and I know you have suffered for quite awhile but I really hope you can get better!!!!!
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P.S. If you are on meds don't stop them or change anything without consulting with your dr. Try to get the suicidal thoughts away from you, I know this isn't easy but no one here or in your life wants to see you harm yourself. Call a good distress line and talk about how you feel and what is troubling you at the moment, you can get through this and I hope you can get through this and once you do you will be so glad you stayed alive to see life in a different way.
Keep posting, everyone wants to see you get better and start enjoying life without wanting to not be a part of it.
((((HUGS))))

Actually, in most ways suicide does seem the easy way out. I hope you are still alive. I know things can be tough but there are lots of people on here that offer very good advice and encouragement. My first response to your post was written when I was at a very low point...it's probably best to disregard it, even though it has positive parts to it, my view on things lately has been clouded by extreme sadness. I do share your pain.

You say that a lot.