It's not best for you to die Richie, please go and get help. You deserve to be happy and to feel better. Try not to worry about people's opinions that judge you. You're right those people have no clue how hard it is.

You were there for me when I needed you.

You really helped the other day. You are a good person and this world is needing more good people, that is one reason why you should not die.

Another is you are loved, you have made an impact on someone else in your life, you know you had. When I asked you this, did someone's face pop into your mind? If so, then reach out to this person.

Here is a link, Please Please Please read it, post or message me once you have, I'm here if you want to talk.
If I'm not online I will be back soon tonight as I am checking this all night long.

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

You are worth a lot more than you know. Good souls are difficult to find.

reasons for you not to do this.

Queens Park Rangers vs West Ham United

Manchester City vs Sunderland

Swansea City vs Reading

Chelsea vs Norwich City

Wigan Athletic vs Everton

West Bromwich Albion vs Queens Park Rangers

Thanks I'm a Millwall fan, our game isn't listed. thanks for your kind words hopefully I feel better in the morning.

No one has the authority to be the judge on whether it is a cowards way or brave decision. The human body has a built in mechanism to stop you from hurting yourself...defeating this is not easy for anyone nor is it recommended. People are so stupid when it comes to mental illness and this isn't going to change in our lifetime so it would be best to not think of other people's opinions about weak or not. If other people experienced it for only a minute they would be horrified by the experience...guaranteed.

SweatingBullets puts it right. Nobody can judge whether suicide is cowardly or anything else. Nobody but you knows what suffering you are experiencing.

I once thought suicide was a viable option. Actually, I thought it was the ONLY option. But today, many years of happiness later, I'm alive and damn glad I didn't take that option. Remember that nothing is permanent and consider that millions of people have suffered as bad as you, maybe even worse, and have held on to life until they got better. That's right. People do come out of depression and conquer anxiety and go on to live normal and even happy lives. I can say this because I'm one of them.

http://gavas.com/GNOSIS-RECONDITE.htm
http://gavas.com/ANXIETY_DEPRESSION.htm

Hang in there, Richie . . . you're going to be okay, perhaps much sooner than you can imagine right now.

Thanks Im really trying. Its like depression takes over my mind things become distorted and suicide seems the only way out.

Hi, I am new here and have been reading alot and seeing that I am not alone. I have been feeling the way you are for a while now. I don't want to die, I just want a way to ease all the pain. I am too much of a scaredy cat to hurt myself, So i would just hope something bad would happen to me. Then, I think of my son. I love him more than life itself. He would be lost without me...I am sure there is someone in your life, weather a person or even a pet that you would hurt the most and be lost without you.

Believe me, I know. You will be OK. Just think of that one person or pet or anything that you would hurt the most.

Thanks I try but in that state of mind thinking of how somebody else will feel doesnt seem to help its a selfish state of mind.

Richie, it is just a choice. It is a very critical choice, because it can be so final. Right and Wrong is not a good measure by which to make an assessment about this. It is such a personal decision, and there are so many subjective aspects that I find it impossible to judge.

Personally, having survived two serious suicide attempts, the ideation never comes upon me any more. I choose life, because it seems to have better possibilities.

I may not have helped you, but I gave it my best shot!!!

I understand your feelings only too well.

My only offering is - things often look better or you have a different perception on a different day. See what tomorrow brings. It may not be as bad as you think it will be.

Huggles,
Proofer

BobCJ makes a good point about it being a personal choice on your part and anyone else making a judgment call about Right vs Wrong is virtually impossible and certainly inappropriate because nobody really knows what you are experiencing except you.

When I was considering suicide, I was asked if I really wanted to choose an all too permanent solution to a temporary problem. Of course I wasn't sure at that time that the problem was temporary but in retrospect I know now that it was indeed a temporary problem.

Teresa520 asked about the affect your suicide would have on others and I understand that your thinking is probably too self absorbed at this time to care. But in my case, everytime I considered suicide, the one big thing that kept me alive was the realization that the people I left behind would, in some small way or maybe in a big way, blame themselves for not being more caring or understanding. I just didn't feel like I had a right to burden anyone with such a guilt trip.

Wishing you happier days,

Scrooge

It's not a cowards way out.It's was hurting people do. But I wouldn't advise it.

I know we reach out because we want desperately to LIVE and not die but we just don't know how to get ourselves to the place we need to be to live the lives we want. Moment by moment and step by step as we reach out and share support we manage to hold on and begin to find our way.

Gentle ((hugs)) shared.
:-) Patricia