Bravery or cowardly should not be the question. Nobody can make that judgment without knowing what suffering one is experiencing. The question should be: "Do I really want to try an all too permanent solution to such a temporary problem?" Depression is a temporary illness that, WITH THE RIGHT TREATMENT, can be resolved. This includes the RIGHT medication . . . if yours isn't working, look into the alternatives and discuss this with your prescriber. It includes the RIGHT kind of CBT that is suited to your specific needs. It includes the RIGHT environment with people who understand your illness, and it includes the RIGHT therapist who properly diagnoses the kind of depressive condition you are suffering from and then properly treats that specific depressive illness.

Best wishes, Richie, for your future happiness. Hang in there.

i understand how u feel ive been suffering with chronic pancreatitus for 3 yrs now im on a feeding tube 16hours a day for life u gotta hang in there i fight it everyday im afraid if i kill myself god will put my soul into a much worse place than my body in i try to stay positive by thinking about those who have it worse good luck

Hi richie
I believe you are strong too cause you been fighting
but at the same time that you are strong you say " its probably best if I die because nothing seems to go right for me "

life will always put obstacles on your way , put difficulties and problems to make you give up on something you want , to make you give up on your life
thats when you need to be strong enough to fight back and act , if you have wisdow within but dont practice it becomes empty .

two important principles for everyone , specially those who are depressed is to search within and practice when problems come , when bad emotions/thoughts come

search strength , wisdow , serenity , patience , knowledge etc

but its no use if they arent practiced during hard times
cause thats what they are for , to be used during difficult moments , to fight agaisnt those bad emotions that try to take over you and those problems that come every now and then

www.journeytoyourendless.blogspot.com
take a look when you can
its not biggie but its from the heart
maybe it could help you a little bit

wish you well
take care

I don't think suicide has anything at all to do with being a coward or being brave. I think it has everything to do with wanting to escape from torment and getting away from this torment is not a simple task. Anyone would want to escape torment. But how do we do it while living without harming ourselves or others? I try not to give the tormentor so much power. You take away its power and you are less tormented but it is such a hard task at times. Best wishes on escaping the torment. Sorry it has taken you to this point but I personally would rather see you defeat the torment :-).

Think Im gonna cut down on drinking suicidal thoughts always come with a hang over.

thats very good richie
Alcohol is not the source of your suicidal thoughts
but it sure is something that give them power to control your mind and body

You dont need any alcohol or drugs/medication to hide yourself behind , you need to face your problems in order to get better

Many use alcohol to forget about their problems temporarily
well , their problems never forget them
they keep growing stronger and bigger
while themselves get weaker
and dont have the will nor the strength to fight back

Think about this and find out for your self
all it takes is a little opening of the mind
to see through the wall of manipulation

take care
and I hope you get to get yourself better .

Too much manipulation in the world today, think people are forgetting about honesty, thats why I like this site not bullshit everyone is there self here noones trying to be better then or outdo anyone.

exactly , people were suppose to be helping others
and are doing the opposite , taking advantage of someones bad situation , thats why you cant expect good things coming from people , if they come great if they dont , it shouldnt be a reason to be sad or angry , we have to expect things from ourselves and one of them is to be able to stay peaceful even when certain situations try to make us get outta control .

You drink?! Whoa, that is a serious no-no. Alcohol is not good for anything especially depression.

When I was 7-8 years old my older brother who is 10 years older then me used to come in my room and start talking to me I think its because I was scared of the dark and my light was on. He told me he was really happy. I thought to myself I cant wait till I can drink myself then I can be happy like he is and when I got the chance I did and it does make me happier then I can be naturally I know its fake I just came home after an argument with one of my best friends but he has to learn he cant take the piss out of me If i lose him as a friend so be it but I hope not but im no ones joke so hopefully he sees sense.

My personal experience is that it is a lot harder to kill yourself than you think it is. I could not do it when it came right down to it. Does that make me strong or weak....I don't know. I don't think it really matters so such as finding a way to life on this earth that you don't feel you have to or want to kill yourself. It is about finding a peace within yourself that allows you to live in peace with your mind, body and soul. To leave the past and move on to the future without fear of living, enjoying and loving again.

One thing I do know is that you are a strong person. You have to be to live with depression. You are a fighter, you are a winner. You are still here.

Cut yourself a break and take a deep breath. Find one good thing in your life and focus on it. You got this.

Hi richierich. for what its worth, you are not alone, I have history. If there is anything I can do, I'm here. Just ask, ok. Heartsman

I am a suicide survivor. Oct 25 last year I tried. I have since learned with therapy and medication.....that suicide is not an option. But everyday that gets closer....i get more depressed. I failed, I was hopeless, I have so much guilt running through my heart, veins and my head. Richierich....it doesn't matter if it makes you brave or a way out. IT IS NOT AN OPTION.

Huggs!!!

I woke up today feeling really highly suicidal life looks grim and black for me, no one cares, wont be hard for me to kill my self i will drink alot and jump off a cliff I wont look back, thinking to do this within the next couple of days.

Gonna defo see my doctor tomorrow in a seriously bad condition now. Carry on feeling like this and highly doubtful I will be here at christmas. I wanna live but feels like hell all around me. I think Amanda Todd had the right idea.