Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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meandthebeast 09/19/2008

Im not leaving and Im not going to be stupid enough to say I am. I have to many people here that I love. Im just so fucking sick and tired of seeing so much abuse and pain. But these that are in so much pain are not even close to helping theirselves. Some dont try to help theirselves at all. And I know Im going to get kicked in the ass for this but I am only saying what so many want to and dont.. I have been through as much or more then some and alot less then others., But damnit, Im trying to get better.. I dont come on here every day and post woe is me posts.. Sometimes we have to pull our head out of our asses and help ourselves.. We can only take so much until we cant take anymore..
If you are trying even just a little I commend you, but if you are not then you will never get better and the more we help you be co-dependant, you will never try and help yourselves..
I dont even know who to believe anymore and I dont even have the words anymore to try and help.. I think I am finally pushed over the edge with everything I have read in the last few days. I always try to put a little humor in things but I dont even know if that helps anymore.. Go ahead and hate me.. I dont think I even care anymore.. I love most of you but damnit, how much do you think we can all take with trying to help some that wont even lift a finger to help theirselves.. Dont get me wrong, we all have bad days, many of them.. But day after day after day, the same fucking thing.. I dont know if I can even try to help anymore.. And damnit I feel so sorry writing this, really I do.. I just have had it.. Im so sorry.. I had to get it off my chest.. Go ahead, throw rocks and hate me.. At this point I dont think I give a shit..... If you care at all about yourselves, try, try try to help yourselves.. We are not drs. and we can only do so much..... Again Im so sorry. I just had to say it... IM so sorry of the fighting and bickering and the freaking I cant make it another day and the next week, I cant make it another day, and the next week etc etc etc..
This fucking disease is the worst disease I can think of but it only gets worse if you dont try a little bit.. peace out.. Y'Vonne

deleted_user 09/19/2008

you go girl...........hugs to you.............

deleted_user 09/19/2008

I fully understand, Me. At the same time, you must focus on getting yourself well again. It doesn't mean being selfish and with holding help, it means caring about yourself as much as you care about others. You don't have to shoulder anyone else's negativity when we have enough by ourselves.

deleted_user 09/19/2008

As you said...you have said nothing that many want to say but won't or can't say. You are completely right in saying that we can only do so much for anyone here that they/we need to, at the very least, try and help themselves. Like you, I know it's hard sometimes but we have to push on or die and I for one am NOT ready to die just yet. Thank you for starting this eye opening post.

***HUGS***

deleted_user 09/19/2008

This is an excellent post, Y'Vonne. Especially the reminder that we are not doctors...

deleted_user 09/19/2008

TRUTHFULLY IN ORDER TO HELP OTHERS, YOU HAVE TO HELP YOURSELF FIRST. YOU CANNOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE COMPLETELY DRAINED EVERY DAY BY OTHER PEOPLE....WHAT THEN DO YOU HAVE FOR YOURSELF? THERE IS NOTHING WRONG, OBVIOUSLY IN TRYING TO HELP OTHERS, WHAT IS WRONG IS WHEN IT AFFECTS A PERSON IN SUCH A NEGATIVE MANNER. I HAVEN'T BEEN ON FOR A NUMBER OF REASONS OVER THE PAST MONTH OR SO.....BROKEN BACK TAKES UP ALOT OF MY TIME, TRYING TO COPE WITH THAT ALONG WITH CFS, FM AND DEPRESSION. THE POINT IS I KNOW WHERE I'M AT....SOMEDAYS THE BEST I CAN DO IS GIVE A HUG, OTHER DAYS I CAN'T EVEN DO THAT. IT EVENTUALLY ALL EVENS OUT AND YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH A TRMENDOUS AMOUNT YOURSELF, MY FRIEND. HUGS

meandthebeast 09/19/2008

Thank you and Im sorry for sounding so bitter. Its just getting so hard to deal with all this sorrow and pain. We all have it, but the ones who post everyday about ending it and not being able to go on every day, seriously need to take a step back and look at theirselves. And the fighting and the trolls, and mean spirited people, and those that seek attention. We are DS, we are a family.. Dont they realize that we feel their pain? And why havent I been rated creative yet? For hell sakes.. Lets help each other but in return, try to help yourselves.... big hugs..

meandthebeast 09/19/2008

gee text.. I think Im going to go kill myself because you were so mean to me.. I dont know what makes you so mean hearted but so be it.. I expected it.. hugs for you though. obviously you have more problems to deal with then one simple thread..

deleted_user 09/19/2008

Textragic...maybe you could direct all that anger creatively...do you even have the first clue about who you are aiming at with that anger cannon? Only one of the best members here, with a long long record of being incredibly patient and helpful to people.

Go tackle something bad in the world, go do something useful.
Respectfully, girlieB.

deleted_user 09/19/2008

MATB,

The exact reason I only frequent this place when I really need support. Sure it may seem selfish to some but damn it when I need a little support I come here and then directly leave, can't stay here for long anymore since it's more depressing than what got me down in the first place.

there was my two sense now can I get the change?

deleted_user 09/19/2008

WELL, NOW I REMEMBER WHY I'VE BEN ABSENT, IGNORE , REPORT, GO ON WITH LIFE.

deleted_user 09/19/2008

oops I meant cents. lol.

deleted_user 09/19/2008

me...i agree with you 100%. and text...how about you take your own advice and grow up while you are at it too?

deleted_user 09/19/2008

{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}} Y'Vonne....well said!

meandthebeast 09/19/2008

I expected some shit from being honest.. some people cant except it.. I love most the people here and Im grateful for the support. I have never even seen this text person before and I hope not to again. Maybe I do need a break, whether I take it I dont know. I would miss you all that have supported me on this thread. Its just a shame that we are to afraid to say what we feel as we may hurt someones feelings. What text said to me did not hurt me, Im not that vunerable. I said what I feel and I will stick by it.. Wasnt trying to cause problems.. I have just seen to many people leave that were important to me. Did you all know that Nanoe is gone? That broke my heart.. And its for the same reason.. If I am in the wrong then give me your reasoning but dont come on here and call me names without giving me some evidence that I am wrong.. peace.. I am not a trouble maker, just saying my peace. Its my right as everyone elses.. hugs..

deleted_user 09/19/2008

exactly and again...good point hun!

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