Sorry I just feel so angry.

I don't watch the news much... I did yesterday and I'm sorry I did... I don't want to imply that I go around uninformed, I know horrible stuff happens, but I think the news stories are chosen for shock value... what will most upset the people who watch.... best ratings type stuff. They don't talk about the good stuff that is going on in the world because happiness doesn't sell.

there is good stuff out there though. I would much rather find out the bad things that happen when they are presented in a way that enables me to make some kind of difference.

the options are to pretend it's not happening, to watch and let it get you down, or to pay attention, educate yourself and do everything you can... you can make a valueble difference.

I once saw this thing online:
You are 1 person out of 7 billion people
On 1 planet out of 8 planets
In 1 star system out of 100 billion star systems
In 1 galaxy out of 100 billion galaxies
And you are enormously insignificant.

In 1 galaxy out of 100 billion galaxies
In 1 star system out of 100 billion star systems
On 1 planet out of 8 planets
You are 1 person out of 7 billion people
and you are incredibly unique"

...I completely understand your view....
...If anyone would have listened to what Christ taught instead of in one ear out the other; then maybe someone could actually open up their eyes and come out of fantasyland!!!!~!
....The rule on this is is to run over whomever for ones own pleasure and gain and to party on.....
....We have flicken sun bombs pointed at each other!!!!
....I am clueless to what kingdom people think they are in but if people believe this is God's kingdom then a quick recheck should be in order....Nothing like being born into a place where everyone is claiming God and everyone is trying to destroy each other....
....But, in this place the lie is the truth and the truth is a lie; and how to fight that is beyond me....
....Imagine being a native anywhere on the Canadian- South American Continent!!!!!...(Not that these people were all God-like, but) White people who you never knew existed end up on your shores and completely decimate your whole kingdom....People are dying left and right from diseases they had never run into....The white people are carrying a cross and teaching they are on God's side while they sprinkle water on you to save you before they killed you.....
....Amazing how everyone is on the creator's side while destroying the creation....WOW!!!!!....Depression a disease?...Or a result from being born into such a place?

we are not a lost cause as a species. Fight on!!!

i feel the same way. i could have written this post myself. i have so much anger and hurt. i feel so let down by people and relationships.

how people can give love for a long time and then take it away in a moment.. and not care. people can turn on and off their feelings or some can.. happiness and love is so short and the sadness and heartache is so long in my life.

i feel like my experiences have made me more jaded more closed to life and people then open to them.. i know im venting..
i can really relate to your post though.

Sorry to disagree with you NW,,,,BUT....
....Just about every living creature on this planet does not completely disrupt the ecosystem that is sustaining them....We have done this...
....Just about every living species in the sea, land and air do not destroy their own species....Humans have plundered everything and everyone without an end in sight....
....Dolphins do not act in such a way...Maybe they will get to heaven before us?

I realize that maybe you're not really asking as much as venting...but I'm awake and bored due to insomnia, so...

For most of us, it's a mix of good and bad and overcoming obstacles and facing challenges in order to have positivity in our lives. Most wouldn't trade that they were born for anything....even with all of the unknowns, the adversities, the grief, etc. Why we are here and the meaning of life itself is not something that I spend much time worrying about. It's sad in many respects as we reach certain ages or find ourselves in certain circumstances... that we are forced to reflect upon our health, our regrets, our losses, etc...but that's just part of it all and i personally will deal with what I can as I am able.

I am generally pretty skeptical, depressed, and frustrated... but I am also one of those that wouldn't trade being alive for anything in the world either. I would rather have my parents back, maybe have a family, have great wealth, etc... but if the alternative is to constantly feel angry, confused, or miserable... then I myself must try to change my perspective and/ or accept the few blessings that I have in me or around me. I believe that we ALL have qualities that we should feel thankful for.

We only get one life and despite all of the violence, negativity, etc... we also have the opportunity to at the very least enjoy the brief or seldom moments along the way that bring us even the smallest amount of happiness, laughter, contentment, security, etc.

What if I had been born with very limited physical or mental facilities? Or what if I had ( like a friend of mine) become a paraplegic at the age of 17? What if I was an alcoholic, or suffered from dementia? I must appreciate the things that I am as well as the things that I am not.

Some of us don't even have the chance or ability to know or appreciate even the most simple of pleasures, experiences, etc...

So with my 2 eyes, ten fingers, relatively sound mind, twisted sense of humor, etc... I choose to live life and keep living...because some days I laugh, or care, or share, or smile, or reflect, or help, or listen....and that makes the whole damn mess just a little more manageable and worth it to be alive. I have opportunities even if I can't always see them or sometimes don't feel as if I do... and those opportunities will continue to keep me going and feeling at least satisfied ( if not glad) that I chose to wake up another morning.

Life sucks plain and simple...especially when we deal with so much, but I hope that you will also try to find solace in even the most simplistic of things. Sometimes we can control things, and sometimes we can't, Sometimes it's all just so seemingly unfair... but that's life and I hope that come tomorrow, you will appreciate the opportunity to keep living...no matter how bad or how good...

Best of luck to you for better days ahead.

Jesus, thank you Anthony... when somebody writes a post that they don't understand the point of life it might be best to disagree a LITTLE good grief! give some HOPE people!!

King, I understand... but could you maybe NOT encourage complete loss of hope for mankind?

I did not want to sound like discouraging to anyone.....
....My attempt to explain point is that I certainly believe that we should not be blaming ourselves for depression and it's affects....
....In my lifetime almost all people I have dealt with that were deemed to suffer from depression were depressed because of not them but what their surroundings were doing to them....
....Therefore I deem that most depressed people are being affected because their hearts are bigger and kinder and are stuck in a place that is not matching it....
....It is not hard to gloss over truths with a bunch of lies hiding the initial crap....
....To act as if we are in some kind of grand place is not a truth and is delusional thinking at best.....
....A place where love, kindness, and goodwill towards one another is a normal function, is not this planet....Just because I wish that this place was such; does not make it such....
....I do not care where you are born or in what country you are born; bumping heads with people with evil intent cannot be avoided....
....These people say..."Something is wrong with you for being depressed.".... I say something is wrong with them for not being depressed!!!!!!
....When you are born into a place where people have sun bombs, war machines, and bio-weapons pointed at each other; to conclude we are in a place where love rules is a complete delusion.....Maybe 10-25% of us escape grammar school without getting sexual debaucherized or abused....To not get whacked by either for a lifetime is like winning the lottery....
....If we are stuck on cigarettes we are literally ingesting poison....The wrapping has nice colors and they say "Alive with pleasure."...Sugar-coating a lie does not change the fact....Not alive with pleasure.....Poisoned with cancer!!!!
....Christ tried to teach peace and proper ways and he was kicked off the planet....His Apostles teaching the same were kicked off the planet....The good people who opened their mouths to simply say evil is what it is have never been not gone after to be removed from this planet....John Lennon teaching only peace and a little pot too was kicked off this planet....
....There will be a "rainbow" over the horizon for the people who got ran over on this earth....This is a good thing....
....Those who ran over everyone had better come up with some unbelievable excuse to God who knows all reasons behind actions....
....We have to forgive..... Vengeance belongs to God.....
....I am trying to comfort invisible while also placing forth simple truths.....
....Do not blame yourself for having a big heart in a place that does not, which is upsetting you....
....I will stake my whole life on this planet that the rainbow of help will soon be sent back once again....

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I looked up "sun bomb" and couldn't find anything, so I don't know what that is... but I get what you are saying...

some people are depressed because life hands thenm crap and there is a lot to be depressed about, which can be helped with change of scenery and some good therapy, some people are depressed because of chemical imbalances which can be often helped with medication, and some people are depressed because they want to be... and often it is a combination of all three.

There are certain things you are in control of, and certain things you are NOT in control of... I find it not very rewarding to sit and focus on what I can not control.

Invisable OBVIOUSLY already knows a lot of stuff is crap... MY response is... "yes, lots of crap... but lots of good... so lets not IGNORE the bad, but let's deal with what we can, and participate int he good, because that is what we can control"

...This is just a true historic fact...The conqueror set out to conquer and conquered....The conqueror wrote history....The conquered got erased from it....
...To be a conquer you have to run over people and nations and take their stuff and lives....
....These are deemed great men of earth as the ones who were overrun were deemed nothing....
....So many will be amazed when the switheroo happens and the ones who got ran over inherit life in the ages to come and the rest are never heard from again....
.....Those of us suffering from depression for having to deal with all the deception that surrounds us will be given a reprieve and a full restoration of health....
...Sun-bomb is a nicer way than saying nuclear warheads....The power of the sun is unleashed on whatever gets whacked....

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann 1927

(This is a very interesting post. All have a right to their feelings, and all of you are right on in my view)

Invisible,

A very good, gifted with marvelous insight into the human behavior, psychologist, once shared with me that it is impossible to live in this world and not be depressed at times by what we see and what goes on. We wouldn't be "normal" if we didn't.

Just thought I'd share that.

Hope you feel better very, very soon. And, I'd try to avoid the news, etc, until I was better, if possible. Depressed people are very sensitive to the hurts and negativity they see. That's why we strive to seek the positive. Hang in there.

(((Hugs)))

The thing is, with depression we tend to see only the ugliness, the violence and suffering. We need to remember that we are "seeing through a glass darkly," our vision is narrowed. I would suggest trying to remind yourself that your depression is making you see only the bad.

And like the others, I think it's a good idea to turn off the news and find positive things to focus on. Google some humor sites, or the sites that show photos of baby animals. ;) Listen to some upbeat music you like.

BTW, I see your status says you haven't slept in 3 days. That is definitely going to make you feel worse. I hope you can get some rest soon. Can you get outside in nature for a bit? Sit in the sun for awhile?

{{{hugs}}}