I feel so depressed today. I like a lot of things about my current job, but there are a lot of other things that stress me out a ton about it. I don't even think I want to work in my field anymore. I think I want to be an illustrator. I'm tired of working with the general public, because they are stupid and obnoxious and don't understand how filling scripts works-- sorry, but it entails a bit more than just pouring pills into a vial, people. I'm tired of the commute, and I'm tired of my schedule. I feel like I need time off, but I can't take it right now. And for the little it pays, I just don't know if it's worth it. Am I lazy? Am I just tying to avoid working at all? I've talked to a career coach who sounded really good, but I can't afford his services. Not when I make $14/hour. I want to work remotely. I want to not be struck in traffic two hours out of the day. I want to be comfortable in my role. But at the rate that I've changed jobs, I feel liked I'm stuck.
I'm simply going to cut calories out. Let's see if I can get my six pack back.
I feel so alone, I'm depressed, my anxiety is out of control and so many people don't bother with me anymore, I feel so useless and worthless.