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I Feel Hopeless

red47640
red47640

I feel so depressed today. I like a lot of things about my current job, but there are a lot of other things that stress me out a ton about it. I don't even think I want to work in my field anymore. I think I want to be an illustrator. I'm tired of working with the general public, because they are stupid and obnoxious and don't understand how filling scripts works-- sorry, but it entails a bit more than just pouring pills into a vial, people. I'm tired of the commute, and I'm tired of my schedule. I feel like I need time off, but I can't take it right now. And for the little it pays, I just don't know if it's worth it. Am I lazy? Am I just tying to avoid working at all? I've talked to a career coach who sounded really good, but I can't afford his services. Not when I make $14/hour. I want to work remotely. I want to not be struck in traffic two hours out of the day. I want to be comfortable in my role. But at the rate that I've changed jobs, I feel liked I'm stuck.

peterthegreat
peterthegreat
There is a oraganization call Hireabilities. If you have mental illness and can prove it . Like if you have a doctor's letter. You can use there serives for free. There provid job training and job hunting. There are experts. Funded by the groverment. I used there servies. They are really nice and train me well. They also call RAMs.
Deckard
Deckard
Me too
Restful
Restful
Hi Red,
I think you should give this job a little more time and see if things start to fall more into your comfort zone. I felt like giving up when I first started my new job, but feel much more comfortable about it now that some time has passed. I still have some very shifty days, but most of them are tolerable.
red47640
red47640
hanks Restful and Peter... I appreciate your input.
red47640
red47640
Thanks Restful and Peter... I appreciate your input. I'm also feeling a lot of guilt today and it's eating me alive. Guilt over having to go home early on Monday because I was sick, guilt over deciding not to come in to help out before my meeting (even though it's my day off, we all still have to go to the monthly meetings), guilt over being depressed, guilt over having to ask my parents for money so I could get my car fixed... I could go on.
nolaguy
nolaguy
If you feel guilty it's because you didn't do something as best as you could.
Start doing your best and you'll feel good about yourself even when it doesn't go right.
Restful
Restful
I disagree with the post above that you didn’t do the best you could have. I do my best all the time and still feel guilty when I screw up something (which is often)
You are fine, and mental illness holds us back from seeing all the good that we do and instead forces us to focus on all the negative. I am constantly feeling guilty and putting myself down in my head. You’re absolutely not alone. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Better times are ahead.
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