Depression is comforting when it's the only thing you know. At first fighting to be happy or stable will feel uncomfortable and hard, but you don't deserve to feel miserable every day.

It is time to be very honest. Voices??? Are you under a doctor's care? Does he/she know about the voices? You may be suffering from something else ..... which if I am correct, is highly treatable. UNtreated is a living hell.

It is none of my business, but I hope you will inform your DOCTOR of the voices ... if you have not already.

And .. do NO HARM to yourself. You are very young, and there is a possibility you are suffering from an untreated condition. Killing yourself when that COULD BE treated would be a horrible, horrible tragedy.

Are you seeing a Therapist regularly and on Medication to treat your Depression. Being depressed as a young child affects a part of the brain called the right amygdala. Many Studies show that children who are affected by Depression at ages of 3 or 4 are predisposed to suffer from Depression as adults.

Hearing voices with Depression, can be a personality syndrome. A personality syndrome is formed by the excessive storage of feelings. If a person is unable to express the feelings of anger, hurt or grief, these feelings get stored inside you. As they add up and more feelings add to them. They become a personality or a part in you.

These personalities or parts have a constant urge to express themselves. The expression is in the form of a voice. There can be many parts or personalities that are formed in an individual. Each part carries itself a voice. Depression can be mainly formed due to storage of excessive feeling. And these feelings can develop into a personality or a voice

When dealing with Severe Depression like yours, it is very important to see a Pdoc and see a Therapist so that things can be managed, otherwise the Depression tends to just get worse.

Take care,
Kat

I am inspired by your strength. I am very sorry to hear about your battle with depression. Life is tough, but you are tough too. Also, you are not alone. I want to let you know that your life is worth the fight, and you have much worth. Please hold on and give it time as everything will get better. I see your tremendous strength to reach out for help. I am proud of you and your efforts as you have done well within the last eight months. I’m wondering if you have seeked therapy in your area or free online therapy?. The online therapy can be researched online this will help you overcome your depression and suicide thoughts. The thoughts and voices are not healthy and I encourage you to reach out to family and friends to vent and talk. Also, establish some healthy coping methods such as, journaling your thoughts and feelings, meditation, exercise, adequate sleep, healthy diet, pets, get out of the house, take a walk, and activities you enjoy. We are here for you. I wish you the best.