My medications are being refilled in my pharmacy and I really need to pick them up. I haven't taken any of my meds in two days. I go throuh this every few months where I am tired of taking medications and I just want to quite. I take prozac, lamictal and rexulti. What happens is a day or two will go by where I just forget to take them, and well I survive. Then, I begin to think, well do I really need them if I can survive fine for a few days without them? I realize that prozac takes a while to leave your system and so the effects of being off of prozac are delayed. I experience withdrawal symptoms from lamictal pretty quickly, but physically I am able to adjust. Mentally, I recognize that it is only a matter of time before the intense anger and desperation that I experience off of lamictal, and the paralyzing anxiety off of prozac will come back; however, just for a few days, it is nice to feel like I am not dependent on some drug to keep me stable. It is nice to have the dullness that is caused by the lamictal begin to lift. I know I need to pick up my meds, but I just don't want to deal with it. I also feel the laziness overcome me. THen I think about having to make it home and hide the medications since my family does not know I take psychotropic meds. It's not like I do great with them. The meds seem to stabilize me just enough that I am functional, though unhappy. Sometimes being 'just functional' seems like too much work to be worth it.