Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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I am okay.

eshaw
eshaw
It has been a difficult day. So many suicidal urges and thoughts and a wave of depression and pain so intense I felt it in my chest. I wanted to numb out, escape, all day long. I slept most the day away. When I woke up I couldn't handle the intensity. I wanted to do anything possible as fast as I could to numb the pain. Last night I dreamt of being busted and sent to prison for a methamphetamine possession, and then having the drug on me and doing everything I could to keep the drug accessible while I was in prison. It was a crazy dream and I woke up this morning craving it intensely, knowing it would be a way out. I finally called a friend who understands addiction, and she begged me not to go there. I did not. I am not an addict, but I have used drugs in the past to escape. I am scared of becoming an addict, and I know I need to do all I can to avoid using drugs again. I have a great life, I just need to learn ways to cope. Tonight I drank beer, not healthy, but one step up from drugs. I am sorry if I trigger anyone. I am just trying to get through this hopelessness one day at a time. I am grateful to be drug-free tonight.
peterthegreat
peterthegreat
I think I was addicted to sex. I still go to the sex club, but less. I want to drink, but I should not. I think you need a doctor. Are you seening one?
eshaw
eshaw
I see an MD for an eating disorder. And I have told her how I've been using drugs to self-medicate.
eshaw
eshaw
I have witnessed friends going down the path of addiction and I refuse to go there. But my depression is bad. I will schedule an appt.with my dr.
jacob77
jacob77
Go to church...start praying...stop drinking.
Seek out a good therapist.
eshaw
eshaw
Ok, if I go to church, will my depression go away? I get it works for some people, but organized religion is not for me. Too much judgement, egotism and beliefs that it is the only one right religion, worth going to war far? I don't think so. I will stick with spirituality and nature to fill my soul with. Thanks though. I know it works for some!
missingjgb
missingjgb
The whole church thing is difficult for me. My faith has been severely eroded by depression. I talked to a coworker yesterday about my issues and she is very religious and wants me to use that to conquer this disorder. Not sure it will work but at least she is there for me. We all need as much support as we can get and I guess that's why we are here. I hope your mood somewhat improved and you get through this ok. Will be thinking of you.
torrancelj
torrancelj
Hello, I also deal with a deep and intense depression it can get horrible at times and I don't use drugs but the one thing I go to when I feel sad is food. I used to be overweight and used to eat what tasted good to me when I felt good, and somedays I still struggle with those urges when depressed. One way to deal with the urges is to realize that eating or doing something that will harm me later will only temporarily feel good, but you'll end up regretting it. When it feels really bad one thing to I also just try to hold on and not bend to the urges and stay strong. It's hard but the feelings will pass. Also another alternative is to find something that feels good to but doesn't hurt you in the end, such as a hobby, music, writing, exercise, etc. And just try to find the positivity in things general. If you need someone to talk to about you can just message me. Sincerely,
Torrance.
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