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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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dumbidiot 12/27/2011

I am asking this because i already attempted a suicide attempt a while ago and no one cared that i did, i got some minor liver damage form that attempt. Anyway, i am planning on ending my life by the end of this year, i know it seems irational at this young age but i dont see any other reason to keep waiting for anything anymore. I have a career, I am capable of learning anything, im a good friend which is what kills me most of all, i am always sad and depressed because i feel lonely and i have no one to talk to but i make time to help others in my life, or just strangers that look like they need help. I just seem to have lost all self worth. I wanted to live long enough to have a family of my own, but aperantly women dont want a guy that is like me, i could care less anymore now, I lived a decent life now, i wish i could see more in my future but i see nothing at all. I belive in god but i know i deserve to go to hell, after all he forgives those that sin on earth into heaven, maybe i can see all the friends that died before me there too. I never felt happy in my life, i feel lonely because i think i am not needed by anyone anymore, plus geting close to a girl i like just to be blown off makes me feel even worse. I dont think i am making a mistake by ending my life am I? i dont see anything there for me anymore, i wish my life had more meaning than to just watch people my age out drinking and having sex and having fun, i dont find that shit fun at all, so i dont think i could ever be with anyone anymore. LoL im just rambling on now, maybe i am better than most for having control but i really dont think i can hold on to my life anymore, it wont be too bad for my family i already have enough money for my funeral saved up so that will be all taken care of, my friends might miss me but they might value their lives more if i lose mine, I feel glad that i am doing this, i hoped for too long that i dint get this depression and i found the cure really fast, i guess i am not strong enough. Can anyone make any suggestions as to what i should do before i end it, should i leave a note or anything behind, i already told everyone i know i am doing this and they just laughed at me thinking i wont, jokes on them though. I lived a good life so far i know i have but i guess happiness is one thing that is always out of reach for me and always will be. Let me know what might be a good choice for me to do, in this situation i dont need pills or doctors i am not crazy, i just want to die, i talked to alot of people and i see no hope still for me.

babygirlhollister 12/27/2011

This breaks my heart :(
I have nothing to say because you have your mind made up.
I would hope you would stick around and that things would get better.
Much Love from your new friend! xoxo!

deleted_user 12/27/2011

What have you tried therapy? med treatments?

I was sort of seeing someone at the beginning of the year she killed herself in Feb.It part of the story that brought me here. It's a horrible pain when your told someone you know has done it, It's a huge emotion punch. I was just numb at her funeral. I drank a bit but felt a numbing physical sick feeling it really sucks. I know the pain left behind mate.

I your really brave and smart for asking for asking for help but there is only so much we can do for you here a lot of it's up to you. Do talk to a counsellor the phone counselling lines are very helpful and very cheap. Churches do free counselling.I know the YMCA offer free counselling with a trained psychologist around the world. There are many options for you. you are not alone with what you are going through and you don't have to go through it alone.

I really hope you change your mind and stay a bit on DS., We are all friends here and support each other through things like this...

reveal321 12/27/2011

i think there is always help if you're willing to seek it out.

and if you're really feeling this bad, i'm sure there is a therapy or medical treatment that can help you.
sometimes we can't cure our "issues" on our own and outside help is required to feel better.

you have to take responsibility for your own body and mind.
it seems like you know you have some worthy traits. it's worth it to find out what other possibilites are out there for you when you are emotionally healthy.

good luck.

dumbidiot 12/27/2011

but there is no one to help me with anything at all, i tried counseling, they just told me to kill myself and what am i waiting for, i wish i dint feel like this i wish i was like everyone else in the world, just happy and not caring if they hurt anyone, i see no reason to live alone my whole life which is what will happen for sure for me cause depressed people cant have normal relationships with others at all. i know its a bad thing to do i know there is hope for me, its just small in comparison to anything else. i wish i was already dead or not born into this world, why would i feel like this all the time if life is meant to be enjoyed, i see no joy at all, i never had any, i am not angry at myself, i am just happy with me dieing right now, sure im crying all the time because of the things i never had or will have but who knows what happens after death, it cant be worse than this feeling now. There is hope for those that deserve it, i dont deserve it i guess.

deleted_user 12/27/2011

I very much doubt they told you to kill yourself if they did you have taken it all out of context which is your depression!!!! Are you on meds?

deleted_user 12/27/2011

you saw the wrong counsellor. that is horrible advise.

there is deeper than just sex and drinking and partying, but you have to look for it. give yourself the chance to have a happy life, because it really can turn around and get good.

get in to see a counsellor, get a referal to a psychiatrist, and get some meds to help you. you sound like you're so sick right now, and it makes me sad. sorry you're feeling so horrible.

reveal321 12/27/2011

a medical doctor should be able to refer you to the appropriate specialist.

dumbidiot 12/27/2011

but i dont need a doctor guys im not sick in any way, sure i want to kill myself and if i do its no ones fault. I dont need medicine to cure something that isnt there this is a disease that i have my whole life and its just gotten to a point where its speread all over, like cancer and its too late to get rid off, i wish i could live longer with it but its not in my cards, it never is. and what else is there to do at 21 years old instead of drinking and having sex and partying, i dont see anything else, everything i try to do those things are involved in there. Im only asking because i am giving up hope and see no silver lining for me anymore, its a sad sight for me. i want to live but i dont think i am worth being alive anymore, everyone has told me the same thing.

itsjustme8 12/27/2011

Your are contemplating a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Yes, it feels awful but you need help!! Keep asking and take a single baby step again by picking up the phone and calling a suicide helpline.

dumbidiot 12/27/2011

i will try to live a happy life, i wish i was getting laid more then i probably woulnt have this problem at all, or at least have a stable relationship, but i might still be too young at this age for that too. i will have to just try to work on myself for right now and take shit slowly, i dont care about other things anymore, i lived to be the best person i could, not what others thought was good but in my head i belive i might be great to some.

reveal321 12/27/2011

you should still see a doctor to have your mental health evaluated. maybe there is a chemical imbalance that contributes to your depression and thoughts of suicide.

they can recommend a treatment plan to best heal you so you can start to live happy again.

dumbidiot 12/27/2011

lol my mom was on meds for cancer, she still died while on them, i am not taking anything i just need some time to think

deleted_user 12/27/2011

OK. At your age I was shy, I did not drink, did not smoke, and could not date guys. I had no friends alo. More over I was bullied in school as well. Inteligent people very often have problems like you but they become successful in life in long term. Later I got much less shy and could find men much easier.
What I want to tell you that if you can not find a girl at the age of 21 that is no tragedy because it will fix itself when you will get older.
The age of 21 is too early to make such serious decision.
As well as it is too early to start family. By 30 years when normal men with good career usually start family you will be able to find good woman.
Also you should remember that there is match for everybody. If you decided that certain women do not like you that does not mean that all women do not like you. What women like changes with age. Some of those women that do not like you now might change their mind later when those men that drink now will look like crap in couple years. In your age women might like men who drinks but if they marry somebody like that they cry later about it.
I liked in your age man like that too because I am also woman like any other but I did not marry anybody like that. Now that man is complete alcoholic. I actualy married somebody who was bullied in school because he seemed much more stable for creating the family.

deleted_user 12/27/2011

Not get laid enough is big problem for everybody not just for you. There is no reason to cry over it and especially to suicide. if your staff functions properly you should be happy. You will get laid adventually. If it would not work than you would have to cry.

deleted_user 12/27/2011

If get laid is your major problem which causes you to go caput you should be better saving money not for your funeral but for the ticket to Thailand. Everybody gets laid there. Or may be for China. Everybody get married there. Or for Ukraine (my native country). Everybody gets laid and married there. it is even funny to listen that young, full of energy man, who has good career thinking about suicide over the problem of not getting laid enough.
Or may be you should go to military and serve your country (if you not afraid to die anyway). That way you would do something useful before you die.

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