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I am asking this because i already attempted a suicide attempt a while ago and no one cared that i did, i got some minor liver damage form that attempt. Anyway, i am planning on ending my life by the end of this year, i know it seems irational at this young age but i dont see any other reason to keep waiting for anything anymore. I have a career, I am capable of learning anything, im a good friend which is what kills me most of all, i am always sad and depressed because i feel lonely and i have no one to talk to but i make time to help others in my life, or just strangers that look like they need help. I just seem to have lost all self worth. I wanted to live long enough to have a family of my own, but aperantly women dont want a guy that is like me, i could care less anymore now, I lived a decent life now, i wish i could see more in my future but i see nothing at all. I belive in god but i know i deserve to go to hell, after all he forgives those that sin on earth into heaven, maybe i can see all the friends that died before me there too. I never felt happy in my life, i feel lonely because i think i am not needed by anyone anymore, plus geting close to a girl i like just to be blown off makes me feel even worse. I dont think i am making a mistake by ending my life am I? i dont see anything there for me anymore, i wish my life had more meaning than to just watch people my age out drinking and having sex and having fun, i dont find that shit fun at all, so i dont think i could ever be with anyone anymore. LoL im just rambling on now, maybe i am better than most for having control but i really dont think i can hold on to my life anymore, it wont be too bad for my family i already have enough money for my funeral saved up so that will be all taken care of, my friends might miss me but they might value their lives more if i lose mine, I feel glad that i am doing this, i hoped for too long that i dint get this depression and i found the cure really fast, i guess i am not strong enough. Can anyone make any suggestions as to what i should do before i end it, should i leave a note or anything behind, i already told everyone i know i am doing this and they just laughed at me thinking i wont, jokes on them though. I lived a good life so far i know i have but i guess happiness is one thing that is always out of reach for me and always will be. Let me know what might be a good choice for me to do, in this situation i dont need pills or doctors i am not crazy, i just want to die, i talked to alot of people and i see no hope still for me.
I have nothing to say because you have your mind made up.
I would hope you would stick around and that things would get better.
Much Love from your new friend! xoxo!
I was sort of seeing someone at the beginning of the year she killed herself in Feb.It part of the story that brought me here. It's a horrible pain when your told someone you know has done it, It's a huge emotion punch. I was just numb at her funeral. I drank a bit but felt a numbing physical sick feeling it really sucks. I know the pain left behind mate.
I your really brave and smart for asking for asking for help but there is only so much we can do for you here a lot of it's up to you. Do talk to a counsellor the phone counselling lines are very helpful and very cheap. Churches do free counselling.I know the YMCA offer free counselling with a trained psychologist around the world. There are many options for you. you are not alone with what you are going through and you don't have to go through it alone.
I really hope you change your mind and stay a bit on DS., We are all friends here and support each other through things like this...
and if you're really feeling this bad, i'm sure there is a therapy or medical treatment that can help you.
sometimes we can't cure our "issues" on our own and outside help is required to feel better.
you have to take responsibility for your own body and mind.
it seems like you know you have some worthy traits. it's worth it to find out what other possibilites are out there for you when you are emotionally healthy.
good luck.
there is deeper than just sex and drinking and partying, but you have to look for it. give yourself the chance to have a happy life, because it really can turn around and get good.
get in to see a counsellor, get a referal to a psychiatrist, and get some meds to help you. you sound like you're so sick right now, and it makes me sad. sorry you're feeling so horrible.
they can recommend a treatment plan to best heal you so you can start to live happy again.
What I want to tell you that if you can not find a girl at the age of 21 that is no tragedy because it will fix itself when you will get older.
The age of 21 is too early to make such serious decision.
As well as it is too early to start family. By 30 years when normal men with good career usually start family you will be able to find good woman.
Also you should remember that there is match for everybody. If you decided that certain women do not like you that does not mean that all women do not like you. What women like changes with age. Some of those women that do not like you now might change their mind later when those men that drink now will look like crap in couple years. In your age women might like men who drinks but if they marry somebody like that they cry later about it.
I liked in your age man like that too because I am also woman like any other but I did not marry anybody like that. Now that man is complete alcoholic. I actualy married somebody who was bullied in school because he seemed much more stable for creating the family.
Or may be you should go to military and serve your country (if you not afraid to die anyway). That way you would do something useful before you die.