I am asking this because i already attempted a suicide attempt a while ago and no one cared that i did, i got some minor liver damage form that attempt. Anyway, i am planning on ending my life by the end of this year, i know it seems irational at this young age but i dont see any other reason to keep waiting for anything anymore. I have a career, I am capable of learning anything, im a good friend which is what kills me most of all, i am always sad and depressed because i feel lonely and i have no one to talk to but i make time to help others in my life, or just strangers that look like they need help. I just seem to have lost all self worth. I wanted to live long enough to have a family of my own, but aperantly women dont want a guy that is like me, i could care less anymore now, I lived a decent life now, i wish i could see more in my future but i see nothing at all. I belive in god but i know i deserve to go to hell, after all he forgives those that sin on earth into heaven, maybe i can see all the friends that died before me there too. I never felt happy in my life, i feel lonely because i think i am not needed by anyone anymore, plus geting close to a girl i like just to be blown off makes me feel even worse. I dont think i am making a mistake by ending my life am I? i dont see anything there for me anymore, i wish my life had more meaning than to just watch people my age out drinking and having sex and having fun, i dont find that shit fun at all, so i dont think i could ever be with anyone anymore. LoL im just rambling on now, maybe i am better than most for having control but i really dont think i can hold on to my life anymore, it wont be too bad for my family i already have enough money for my funeral saved up so that will be all taken care of, my friends might miss me but they might value their lives more if i lose mine, I feel glad that i am doing this, i hoped for too long that i dint get this depression and i found the cure really fast, i guess i am not strong enough. Can anyone make any suggestions as to what i should do before i end it, should i leave a note or anything behind, i already told everyone i know i am doing this and they just laughed at me thinking i wont, jokes on them though. I lived a good life so far i know i have but i guess happiness is one thing that is always out of reach for me and always will be. Let me know what might be a good choice for me to do, in this situation i dont need pills or doctors i am not crazy, i just want to die, i talked to alot of people and i see no hope still for me.