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i'm being haunted by the memory of my ex - almost 5 years ago i met a man named Andy- we were alike in every way- and by every way i mean we thought , looked, and loved each other the same- he was like the male version of me- even our names matched- he was Andy and i'm Brandi.... he was my first love and the first man i ever let make love to me......i thought i'd be with him forever... i was in love and loved him u know.... he was my everything... he waited a year for me to be ready to give myself to him- he was my Hunny Bunny and i was his Cuddles..... in the summer of 2006 he was wrestling and i get a call from his boss saying that he had a heart attack- he was in the ICU for a long time and nobody knew if he would make it or not- he did... and we were planning on going out somewhere special when he got out of rehab- well in dec 2006- i got a phone call saying- i love u babe and i'll be out of here next week..... and then he was just gone..... i can't help it- i compare all my boyfriends to him and i wish i could have him back- why did god take my Andy from me? i still have my days when i hear our song ( Lifetime of Dreams by Journey) and i just cry - i still remember our first conversation- he said can i tell u that i love u - and i said u don't even know me! and he said some day you'll feel the same way about me....... and it was true i did..... he was my prince charming- one of the most caring , loving men i've ever known and there is no other like him- just needed to vent today- having a hard time letting his memory go and missing him so much lately ...... he wanted us to have a baby so bad and now i regret not making one with him- cause atleast then i'd still have a part of him- now all i have are these haunting memories , and dreams- i always kinda knew it would end this way- used to have dreams that he was standing in this fog and no matter how hard i ran or tried i just couldn't get to him and i'm wake up with real tears streaming down my face..... he was my soulmate i have no doubt about that.... :( i miss u Andy !....... i just pray god watches over u til i can get there to be with you.....
RockNMetalChic
just saying thanks for all the replies and goodnight everyone !
RockNMetalChic
thinking of u again today Andy - u feel like ur so close lately- what do i do about my current situation? please lead me in the right direction Babe !
deleted_user
Do you think you could talk to Scott about Andy
RockNMetalChic
yes cause Scott knows everything about him- but he doesn't know he died- Jen i don't want u to worry about me right now- please focus on you- i love u girlie and i want u to be ok ...
deleted_user
I'll be fine, but i want to help you
RockNMetalChic
u are helping me so much more than u know- just being my best friend and sis means more than anything in this world to me..... and once my life is back on track i'll be ok- i know in my heart Andy is watching over me and wanting me to move forward with my life- knowing he will always be around and be a part of it makes me smile...
RockNMetalChic
God i miss u more than i ever thought i would..... just to hear u say- "I'm Gone" at the end of our phone conversations again.... i'd give anything for that ! sorry to go on and on everyone but i love him so much- and i just need to vent and let this all out .....
deleted_user
It's ok. Vent all you need to. That what we are here for
meandthebeast
sweetie, that makes me so sad. He is watching over you my dear and I know that he is sad because you are sad. Time does heal all wounds even though we dont think it will. Im sure that sometime in your life you will find another soul mate. I have but it took alot of trial and error to get there. I am praying and thinking of you my friend.. Y'Vonne
RockNMetalChic
but this is so unfair to Scott- why am in so much pain when i love him so much !
RockNMetalChic
i've found a new love in my life but i feel this is so unfair to him - to be thinking of Andy and missing him- Scott is amazing and i can't wait to be with him everyday and make a life together- this is just so sad and confusing for me....
RockNMetalChic
bumping this cause i want to- so bite me ;p
deleted_user
Oh my, you've been through so much! I think there is room in your heart for both Andy and Scott. hugs :)
RockNMetalChic
yes there is- now i feel like i've found another man i'm willing to take a risk with and go for it all- but i will never forget my first love My Andy.......
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