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i'm being haunted by the memory of my ex - almost 5 years ago i met a man named Andy- we were alike in every way- and by every way i mean we thought , looked, and loved each other the same- he was like the male version of me- even our names matched- he was Andy and i'm Brandi.... he was my first love and the first man i ever let make love to me......i thought i'd be with him forever... i was in love and loved him u know.... he was my everything... he waited a year for me to be ready to give myself to him- he was my Hunny Bunny and i was his Cuddles..... in the summer of 2006 he was wrestling and i get a call from his boss saying that he had a heart attack- he was in the ICU for a long time and nobody knew if he would make it or not- he did... and we were planning on going out somewhere special when he got out of rehab- well in dec 2006- i got a phone call saying- i love u babe and i'll be out of here next week..... and then he was just gone..... i can't help it- i compare all my boyfriends to him and i wish i could have him back- why did god take my Andy from me? i still have my days when i hear our song ( Lifetime of Dreams by Journey) and i just cry - i still remember our first conversation- he said can i tell u that i love u - and i said u don't even know me! and he said some day you'll feel the same way about me....... and it was true i did..... he was my prince charming- one of the most caring , loving men i've ever known and there is no other like him- just needed to vent today- having a hard time letting his memory go and missing him so much lately ...... he wanted us to have a baby so bad and now i regret not making one with him- cause atleast then i'd still have a part of him- now all i have are these haunting memories , and dreams- i always kinda knew it would end this way- used to have dreams that he was standing in this fog and no matter how hard i ran or tried i just couldn't get to him and i'm wake up with real tears streaming down my face..... he was my soulmate i have no doubt about that.... :( i miss u Andy !....... i just pray god watches over u til i can get there to be with you.....
From the first day... I envisioned myself with you
It's so hard to wait... But with you it was easy to do
Somewhere in time...
I knew I would find you here with every passing moment
I see forever so clear
Part of me was lost without you
You are where I found my faith
Feels like love is here to stay...
CHORUS:
When I look in your eyes baby
I see a lifetime of dreams come true
And I want you to say, that you feel the same way too
The stars in your eyes tell me
All my tomorrows will wait for you
You're all of my prayers answers
My one saving grace is you...
In another life... I believed that I loved you then,
If lightning strikes twice, we are destined together again
We don't have to make a promise, we were always meant to be
It's written in the way you look at me... I see
REPEAT CHORUS
Love moves at the speed of light
Takes years to get it right
But we've got till the end of time...
I can see.... I can see... You and me, forever
You're the one woman that can make me stay
My one and only saving grace
REPEAT CHORUS
I can see... I can see
You and me, forever
I can see... I can see
You and me, forever
my deepest condolacies for your loss.
Not many people meet such a special person in there whole lifetime a true sole mate.
My view is why would you ever want his memory to go away he is your God the perfect man for you.
How about you spin this memory and look at it this way you had the best time in your life with this person that should be celebrated and know one could ever forget that you love him and will forever remeber all the good times with laughter and a sense of pride that you were lucky enough to have met him and shared the time to-gether before he passed away.
It is natural to compare other people to see if they measure up of course they will never measure up.
The challenge you are facing is how to remeber his memory with joy. But at the same time leting go because you did not want it to happen and could not believe the unfairness.
God must have needed him more and your soul mate will be waiting for you later in life.
Please do not let his memory go away be thankfull you were the lucky one that had him in life.
I suggest you could need proffesional support from a grief councelor it is to much for you to deal with on your own.
You still need to love the memory but get to grips with the reality he will not be back in this life.
If you knew him so well what do you think he would want you to do I am sure he would not want you to be so unhappy.
We can only hope that he is resting in peace but I suspect he will not be fully at peace untill you get better he will be watching over you.