I decided after a few months of changing my dr. and trying to get off of medication that I was wrong. It just is not working.  I got back in touch with my old dr. and will see her next week.  I cancelled with the new one, they wanted to know why.  I assured them that it was not them, but that there is just too much change in my life right now, and that I thought I could handle different meds or no meds, but I was very wrong. I feel significantly less depression and anxiety on the days I take my original med, so I am just going to return to what works. I had originally quit due to being worried about long term side effects, but there are just too many problems to mention. My thoughts go all to the wrong place, and I stay awake until dawn, this is just not working out. It's not healthy. I hope she won't be too upset and that we can continue on the path that we were because I was slipping. I tried to be nice with the new dr. office, I just explained that the change is just very destabilizing for me and that I need to stick with what works. It wasn't anything they did or did not do.  So much has changed in my life, I just can't handle the destabilization of a bunch of meds that don't work for me when there was one that did the trick pretty much.