well, help would be to get you to list the things that are wrong with your life.

then you need to choose one. I recommend the smallest and easiest.

And then you have to fix it.

When you have 20 things wrong with your life, your brain will tell you to kill yourself. It won't give you any solutions to the small things. it will make the little ones appear huge. it will tell you that no matter what, it all ends badly. Don't listen to that crap.

If you don't feel you can choose one issue and resolve it (possibly by having to have an uncomfortable conversation) then you need a counsellor.

But one thing you can GUARANTEE is that killing yourself does not improve your life. Your life stops improving at that point. there is no more life.

Yes, you do need help. Please get help. Google a suicide hotline and talk to someone, or perhaps someone down thread can recommend one.

If you really feel you are in danger of ending your life, check into the voluntary psych ward at your local hospital and stay for 72 hours until you get some counseling and a med adjustment and feel better.

Going inpatient has saved my life more than once when I was suicidal. Don't be afraid to get help.

Sent you a private message.

People here have give you terrific advice. I hope and pray you can find some inner peace.

Have you talked to someone? Death is final...which sounds like a dumb thing to point out....but should things improve...you won't get a second chance. And I am speaking from experience here. Had I acted on my suicidal thoughts years ago, i would have missed some wonderful things I could never have predicted at the time. I am not sure what problems you have, but depression and its counterparts sure can make a person feel hopeless. Keep posting here! We care!

You are not alone. Many members feels the same way.

I agree with you, there are times I would welcome death. Luckily I've never had those feelings while having the means to do so.

Therapy is a very good place to start. Medication may or may not be suggested, and even if suggested you may not "have" to go that way.

But please start therapy! Use it to help you define where you are, define an acceptable achievable future, and plot a path to get you there.

It can be done (live and find a better place), and it is possible for all of us to do it.

Gentle hugs

I would like to thank everyone for your encouragement and advice. I do have a therapist. We are addressing some of the issues. I'm trying to stay in the present to prevent anxiety. So, I am in a better place and not in a desperately fear of what I might do. Thanks again!

I am no clinician, but I believe DID is an extreme manifestation of sever PTSD. Both are treatable, and I strongly suggest you put them at the top of your list for seeking all the treatment you can find.

We love you, Ms Jessicachase .... and we don't want any harm to come to you ... ESPECIALLY any you may bring onto yourself.

I always hated when doctors would say this to me, but "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." A lot of people don't really want to die; they just want the pain to end, and it does get better. Killing yourself isn't necessary.

Are you seeing a psychiatrist, therapist, and/or taking any medication? Please call your doctor or go to the hospital if you are feeling suicidal. Do you have a good friend that you can talk to?
Hugs

INDEED ASK 4 HELP.
DONT END YOUR LIFE................................
IF I ENDED MY LIFE I WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ABLE 2 FILL OUT MY HUBBYS FORM 4 NEXT YEAR FOR HIS BENEFITS 4 HIS EMPLOYER.
COUNT ALL THE GOOD THINGS INSTEAD OF LISTING THE BAD ONES IN YOUR LIFE.
DO A GRATITUDE LIST!
GBU
DB
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Suicide is never a legitimate option to the ending of one's life.

I've personally been deep down in the black pit, and when I received the help I needed, I found my way out of it, and haven't turned back.

Suicide is a poor option, in fact it is no option at all.

Get professional help because to this world you are as important as I am.