Welcome to the group. I am glad you posted how you are feeling. You will find so many people who understand and support you here. I am glad you did not harm yourself.

Here's looking toward a better day. (((((HUGS)))))

heatherhurts

Hi KIm. I'm Diane. Happy to meet you but sad you are hurting.

Hi. I used this site years ago, when i felt like i had nobody to talk to. It was a good place for me to vent and have a little bit of interaction with people in similar situations.
I haven't really posted and let people back into my life...i just read thru a few threads now and then...6 months ago, my signifigant other of 13 years killed himself....after years of threatening to do so. He finally did it. And it has tore our worlds apart. My kids and i miss him terribly. We all do counselling, it sucks...really just sucks that we r all left broken hearted...Hi Kim...DS is a good place, hope u get the comfort u need here

All of us here struggle with anxiety or depression. So we're all here to listen and understand. Sad that you're feeling so awful. Hope you get the help you need.

Kim,
It's Jill. I private messaged you this morning, before I even saw this post. I CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have had depression too on and off.... Life is hard. No doubt about that. We put so much pressure on ourselves that we are supposed to be happy all the time and have our shit together and not struggle. Buddhism would be a great think for you to research a bit. Some books by Pema Chodran and the great Thich Nhat Hanh. I gave you my cell in the private message Kim. I'm sorry you are hurting. You hang tough. Much love, Jill

Hi Jill.
Welcome to the group. I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad and this is a great group of people and we all care about you. Please keep posting and reaching out, okay? May I ask if you are under a doctor's care and if you're taking any medication for your depression?

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

((((((((( hugs )))))))))))

LMT

WELCOME 2 OUR GROUP KIM.........................
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DRENA B

Thanks everyone for your warm welcome. I live in Australia so the time difference makes it a bit hard. I'm planning on going out for the morning so feeling a bit better. I am under a psychiatrist and are taking meds for depression. They don't seem to be helping that much. Its great to know that I am not alone and other people suffer from this.

In the final analysis, it all boils down to each of us caring if we live or die. We can stake our sense of worth on very special people in our lives, but even that is dangerous.

In rough times I've used short terms things to get by. I need to live until the next Harry Potter book comes out, or the next movie, or while my dad is alive and needs me.

But sooner or later all of those things run out.

I work hard to find things that motivate me, mostly this means finding out what takes my energy and happiness away from me, and then find a way to get over it, or remove that thing from my life.

I have had passions in my life, but other people outside of my experience took all the joy out of them. I walked away from one of them "forever", and another one I walked away from until the people spoiling it for me left and then I returned and had a lot of fun with it.

In a way I'm in between passions again, and I have to plow through my daily life.


Sorry to go off on a tangent here.

I am pleased to meet you, sad for the reasons that brought you here, but pleased to meet you none the less!

Gentle hugs,
Pepper

I am taking med too. I have to get massages every week to feel better.

I have had major depression and GAD and of course had some very suicidal times, but being out of that state, it sort of fades.

So I'm left saying: you say nobody would care if you live or die.

Well: would you care?

I mean - it's the only life you get.

If you aren't enjoying it, you need to find out why and change the bits that add together to make the life you don't want. think big. Run away to south america and follow a spiritualist guru. Disappear off to Tibet and herd yaks.

You can do ANYTHING when the alternative is death. ANYTHING. You're in a position of having nothing left to lose.

Welcome to the group. Please accept the help and care that is offered to you. The members here really care. I have been where you are, I am so sorry you feel this way.

welcome to the group Kim, many here have felt same and been where you are now . This is good group to vent, ask questions, and share. We do understand.