Don't do it. Current circumstances may be bad but there is a whole life ahead and it may be hard to see through this tunnel vision of depression and PTSD but there is good. I am very sorry people are stupid and vastly incapable of dealing with someone else's trauma even from a distance. Rape and sexual harassment are horrible experiences. Please don't do this.

I don’t know you or your circumstances, and I can’t begin to understand the pain you are in... but I too sometimes think about ending it because it doesn’t seem like there is anything to live for. But there always is something, if you look hard enough. Just find that one shred of light, of hope, of strength, and don’t let go. Even if it just this group. We are here for you. We love you.

I trust you.

I hear you. I see you. I believe you. I feel your pain..... I was raped too. I'm going to charge my rapists tomorrow. Maybe that's your beginning. Maybe it will be mine too. We are in this together. Please stick with me because we need to be heard

Did you go to the police when you were raped, and press charges against the person who raped you?

You've been through a trauma and it takes quite a while to work through trauma's before you can get to the other side where just the thought or remembrance of it doesn't cancel out all of the healing you've done. You need to be working with a Therapist to help you deal with the Trauma and work through those feelings, it's the only way you can get through it and back to some semblance of normalcy.

Regarding those who don't believe you, there's not much you can do about that, and you need to focus on you and getting better, not what others think. Work with your Pdoc, and work with your Therapists so that you can get through this and the depression.

I’m sorry you are hurting so badly. You have been terribly traumatized and the pain will not go away on its own. Don’t let it fester in your mind, but please find someone you can confide in. There are women who had been violated, yet have successfully found freedom from their pain and shame. For now, it may seem like you are walking through a valley of shadow of death, but don’t be afraid, because you are not alone. It’s too soon to give up hope. Keep taking the next step and the next step... You are loved. You are valuable, even though you may not feel like it, and you may not believe it, but you are. There is a special plan for your life.