I have feelings for someone I work with; problem is, she's already married. I feel TERRIBLE. For one thing, she's married, so I feel like it's wrong for me to like her. For another, we CAN'T be together. It's doomed from the start. So I just have this mixture of pain and guilt inside and it's killing me. I don't know what to do. I haven't felt like this about someone in years, but it seems like every time I do, there's a reason it can't work out, and that reason gets more serious every time. I mean, will I ever NOT be alone? I want a best friend, a person who will think, "hey, out of the 7 billion people on the planet, I think you're the most special, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you." I want someone to talk to, and someone who wants to talk to me. I want to be wanted. Why does this keep happening? I want to be with someone, or die and be with God; I just can't keep living on my own. I need someone to talk to. I need a best friend.
So today was my birthday, yet it's made me feel down. I got a text from my mum and one of my sisters (I have 2 sisters, 1 brother), my mum dropped off a present and card from her and my dad. My boyfriend only remembered it was my birthday after I'd told him about my daughter singing happy birthday to me and he posted on Facebook. Then he caused an argument.Yeah I got messages on Facebook, but...