We move forward because God has a purpose for us. If we cut our life short its a slap in the face of God. Stay strong my friend. These stupid thoughts float around in our heads but they are just thoughts! We need to stay strong for each other my brother :)

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all. Psalm 34:18, 19

I fear "What if the problems are permanent!!!???" too. I just attempted suicide on the 8th of Oct. I spent 48 hours in the hospital because of it.

For me it was an impulse attempt, due to my hormones. I normally think about it on a near daily basis.

CBT is not suppose to be about thinking positively. It's suppose to be more like a fact checking mission. Digging through your thoughts to see the true bases of them. I found it quite hard to do at first.

I do not believe in any god/s. I believe in human kind and kindness. Although there are mean people out there that need to be steered clear of, I found that there are far more kind and caring people then mean ones. I also found that the a lot of the "mean ones" are the very ones that ARE suppose to care about us and are the ones we need to steer clear of the most.

I do believe we all have the right to choose death over suffering. I would just ask that people make sure their suffering is not temporary.

I ask that you do not judge your self too harshly or by other peoples standers.

Best wishes...Brainoverload.

all problems can be dealt with. some of it has to be done with acceptance. once you accept what you cannot change, things will improve. you change the things you can and accept the things you can not change. basically the serenity prayer

The maddening thing is if you cannot physically change things, then the only way to change them is by changing your thinking, a la, CBT. Contrary to Hollywood and Madison Avenue's archetypes people come in all shapes, sizes, and types.

I tried to kill myself a little less than two months ago. Professionals like to use hurt rather than kill, which rubs me the wrong way. My attempts were bona fide. Somehow I survived three attempts three days in a row. The consequences of my first attempt is I do not remember most of the next day. It is almost a complete blank, but I was functional. I do not know where I went, exactly, or what I did. Just attempting suicide can have consequences.

I understand where you are coming from. I got to the point where I didn't care if it was a permanent solution. I was expecting a spiritual experience. Instead, what I saw was nothing.

Nobody knows for sure what happens when we die. Would you rather use this chance, although not perfect, to live or chance nonexistence. Not existing is scary.

AMEN!

The Serenity Prayer is AMAZING!

Here it is:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

thanks Daisy

That's how I learned to deal with a sexually abusive grandfather, emotional abusive parents and two date rapes.

I don't let things like the past control me anymore

I do not just think change the way you think is going to help you. In my case, I need to change my body chemistry to feel better. Like getting a massage from someone sexy.

I agree with your therapist.

Thanks for all answers:-)

Yes...I have prayed the Serenity Prayer...many times...has NOT worked yet!!!

You know....we can get a "money back guarantee" on almost everything!!! Even snacks!!!!...but NOT our bodies which are chosen for us by other factors.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................how cruel & unfair!!!! "We" are the ones who endure and suffer due to his!

Please remember that you are NOT your depression or your thoughts! You are a whole, complete, vibrantly alive expression of the Universe!! It is the chemicals in your brain that are causing you to have these thoughts and feelings - just the chemicals and they are a bitch to deal with. I am hoping and praying that you have someone(s) who can help you adjust your meds and someone(s) you can talk to to remind you that you are here because you are here for a reason, and you just may not know it quite yet. Lots of us have that challenge - it's sort of a human thing.

There's an old addage: Change your thinking, change your life. So sometimes one just has to force themselves to shift the awful thoughts to ANYTHING else: a flower, a pet, what's next to do? - maybre a bubble bath. DUNNO. But I send you my thoughts and prayers for strenght to find a way!! Blessings!

It sounds really tough and I feel for you. It is possible you could work on some of the body issues but I don't know what they are, so maybe not. You are not your body though. You are a soul and you are here for a reason. Maybe if you go out and try to help some people you will get closer to the reason? This is not very helpful probably, sorry. Maybe you need to change your therapist, if you don't agree with his/her methods? There are many therapists out there and many methods. Also maybe you need a different medication? I wish you all the best and I hope you feel better soon. I am sure that you are here on this earth for a reason and I wish you peace and happiness.

Hey friend, sorry to hear you're feeling sad. How are you feeling now?

Im writing, because earlier today I was feeling pretty sad...I had a crying spell in the elevator and afterward, realized I needed to.change my thoughts. I made up a song. It's not a fancy song, but just a few words I came up to encourage me. No matter how much I want it to be true, my life isn't totally different. It can't change overnight BUT it can change AND the very important thing I want to remember, to celebrate is that I am TAKING ACTION to make it better. I wanted something to affirm the positive steps rather than ruminate on the negative ones. Here are the lyrics I made up tonight.

"I'm on track, making my life better." (sing it howevee you please)

I felt so much lighter with that sentence floating through my mind.

On my way home, I changed the melody and added additional lyrics. See below. I do hope you feel better.
"I'm on track / making life better."
"Can't stop now / I'm taking action."
"Can't stop now / I'm making progress."
"Gotta keep my chin up / smiling."
"Got my chin up / and I'm smiling."
"Won't stop now / results are coming."
" I'm on track / I'm so dang grateful."

Many thanks again to all posts, I appreciate you all!

My depression has lows and lowers! It is like treading water....I am all caught up/obsessed with body image and self comparisons...I always wanted to look like Ronnie Coleman (Google images if unfamiliar) but could never get even close....I always wanted thicker hair.....tried unsuccessfully for almost five years....made only small strides......enough to be disheartening. I even attempted to end it all due to this...twice....

I am very curious ND Hve thought a lot about the subject of suicide , since the day my husband hung hiself in jail. I met him when he was 38 , at the funeral home , his family told me he had a lot of demons going on ,,
that being said, every since I knew him he was on valium, because he did not sleep any more thank 3 or 4 hours at a time, I thought he was jut a hyper person , which he was very skinny and always doing something,
but why didn't his doctor that first prescribed the valium , look further into why he wasn't sleeping???
maybe the doc did tell him he should be mentally evaluated , I dunno, my husband was very stubborn , had a short fuse and had no patience, with other people.
I just wish I learned all about suicide before he did this, I wish I wish :(
DiANE