heretic,

Do you have any Friends or Family or Children? Just wondering.

jaclyn1973,

Where did I use the word "options" because I am looking and I don't see that i ever used that word in the posts to heretic.

I would NEVER make a "throw away" comment to anyone and especially when it involves suicide.

I take it VERY seriously when someone talks about suicide. I take it seriously every single time and I will try to do whatever is in my power to let the person know that there is always a chance that things can get better.

I am not going to debate you. This is about heretic. But please don't accuse me of saying something that I did not say.

I am very hurt and insulted by your accusation and your post.

I am trying to help someone and we are all in a very limited capacity here.

It seems to me that you used the same word as me "resources" and I don't understand why you would accuse me of something that is not true.

Re-read your post that is directed to me. It is very hurtful.

I am trying to help someone just like you are.

Please don't hurt yourself. It sounds as if you could use a good friend. Feel free to message me anytime. I would be happy to talk to you more. I am a good listener.

heretic,

I sent you a message. Just wanted to let you know.

{{{HUGS}}}

H.

Buying a gun and using it is not the answer. I have had friends commit suicide, 2 classmates after high school and my neighbor 3 houses down from me. I found my neighbor, it was not a pretty sight.

I don't know your circumstances, other than what you have shared but, death is not the answer. I lost my 37 yr. old son in 2005 in a car wreck. His death day is coming up July 6th. This continues to bother me yet today.

If I remember correctly, you are not a believer or have much faith in any religion. If I am wrong, forgive me but, if you aren't a believer, ,maybe you should give this some thought. Those of us who believe in God, Jesus, Heaven, Judgment and Hell have nothing to lose if we die and our belief is not true, Those who die and do not believe in these things, lose everything and suffer the consequences which are much worse than anything here on earth. I hope you can get the help you need and I am by no means judging you. I just want you to consider all options, explore them to the fullest before you would consider taking your own life. I care, that's why I commented. Life is precious and I am much older than you are.

Heretic,

This is my first post on here. Please keep reaching out for help. It's easy to just give up, but it takes courage to keep fighting. And, just opening up on here takes quite a bit of courage. I've been reading posts on this site for a couple of weeks now, and there are many people who do care. I hope that gives you some comfort. It does for me.

Oldbiker,
I am sorry for your loss. We lost my brother to a car crash in 1979. He was only 17, and my only sibling. I still have my parents, but every holiday, birthday, and the day that he died are still very difficult for us. I miss him very much, but take comfort in knowing he will live in my heart forever.

I have no friends or family to help me. I have been alone all my life.

I wish people wanted peace for me, and freedom from the hell I live in,

I don't believe God punishes people after they die. There would be no point to that.

I appreciate that people wish my life was better than it is, but it's not.

Life is not going to get any better for me. I really want it to be over.

heretic> I would be happy to be a friend. Just message me whenever you want. I do wish you would find peace but not in the suicidal way that you're thinking. I wish you would not hurt yourself. I wish the best for you.

That must be just awful to not be able to get the help you need. It is frustrating to hear that from anyone who seeking assistance. In my area you can call 211 and speak to someone about possible other options. I truly want you to find some hope. You are in my thoughts ~ Bedhog

Hi Heretic.
I answered your message to me and sent you another message back. I meant what I said in my message to you. Please let me know what you think okay? You know I care, and everyone that has posted on here, cares. They would not be responding if they didn't. Please friends, don't find fault in each others posts to Heretic. That is only going to make Heretic feel bad. Each and every one of you wants to help and I know you all must feel as hopeless as I do that we can't just fix everything. I know Heretic feels loved and cared about here and I also know she appreciates everyone for their concern. And Heretic, we are not going to give up on helping you because we DO CARE, so very much. Lots of love and hugs Gramybear

heretic,

I sent you another message too. We can find you a local resource to get you some kind of temporary housing. Would you be open to that idea? Please let me know. I would even call for you if you don't want to call yourself. If you don't want that then I will respect that too. Please reply to me when you can and we can go from there.

We want to help you. {{{HUGS}}}

Please don't give up!!! I don't know what else to do or say to help you.

I don't know if you tried this place already but they promise shelter for women. They also have all types of programs to get women back on their feet.
THE SHADE TREE--(702) 385-0072
Things can get better, there are people out there who want to help. Please give life one more chance!

Ok-I called the number I left above . When calling push 1 for intake!!
The woman who answered was very friendly and after I explained your situation she said they ahve room, but you have to call and then come in for an intake interview. It's on a first come, first serve basis and she advised to come down as soon as possible.
She said RESCUE MISSION is also taking people in, but their intake hours are end at 3 PM. You could call there first thing in the morning or go to the Shade Tree tomorrow morning. They have phone service 24 hours a day.\
Please don't give up. If I was there in town, I would drive you over there myself. Please don't turn down this opportunity.

Heretic, I haven't been around here much for awhile, but my heart aches for what you are going through. I am so sorry. I have felt how you are feeling so many times - just yesterday, in fact - but I'm better today and coming here and calling the Suicide Hotline helped me and I know you can get past this and feel better. I hope some of the resources people have provided today will be a lifeline for you. So many people are sending you love and hope. Please take good care. You are important, you are cared about, and you are being lifted up by all the good people here.

Heike55 has worked hard in finding you help. You should really take that option. It could help you out. Please keep fighting and don't give up.