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But, I cannot even get angry....

Mercysrogue
Mercysrogue

You know when people flatline in the movies?  That long, low, buzz/beep sound?  That's my life.  I have lost all interest in so many things.  I hate that the person I used to be is not here anymore!  I used to care about looking nice, being organized, staying on top of my work both at home and at work.  Now, I stare.  I just stare.  I sit for hours staring at what I need to do and I want to do it all so badly but I don't.  I just stare.  Inside I'm screaming, "Just do it!"  Outside, I get up to do something and sit back down.  The task, big or small, is just too much.  Normally, I would get irritated with myself for not getting things done.  But, I cannot even get angry anymore....

Bluebird20
Bluebird20
Mercys-Sounds like your having a bad day. If you want to talk about it more, I am open to listening.
Andromeda8
Andromeda8
I know how you feel. I felt the same when my Dad passed away, but I overcame it by doing things that I was not interested in. It was as if my brain was "locked" in from too much grief. Time does heal all, and you will regain your interests in life once more. Don't beat yourself up. Sometimes being frozen is how your brain shuts down to preserve itself in times of enormous stress and adversity. Just let things go and relax. Once you feel better, slowly resume your daily activities, and pick up speed as time goes along.
leeigh
leeigh
Have just spent 2 hrs staring at a ceiling - you are not alone. You describe the feeling so well, flatlining, loosing who you were, not liking who you are. I do believe this is the body's way of making you rest and apart from being embarrassed about the state of me and my home I have decided that some things can wait. Depression is different each day - tomorrow you may do more, or not. If you had a different type of illness people wouldn't expect you to do much, it's a shame depression is not well understood. Cut yourself some slack today.
maria718
maria718
It's like a big weight holding you down in that chair, right? Depression is like that, and then when you stare you end up thinking too much also. It can make you crazy. Try your hardest to break the cycle. Get up, push the depression weighing you down off of you, and get going! It's hard, but please try, you can do it!
frostypinksun
frostypinksun
It is okay to feel down. Allow yourself to have these feelings without shaming yourself. You are doing great. We all have different moments in our lives when we feel like we can't go on or we feel like we want to be the person we were before, but we are growing, and sometimes it means one step forward and two steps back. But you are doing great. Let yourself change and grow and don't feel bad about not feeling anything. It happens sometimes and it's not something we can control, but we do not have to feel shame.