What he did to you?

You may never know the why other than he is a twisted person. I asked myself that same question about my own brother for years. Have you told anyone has anything been done to charge him and protect you

PETER - it doesn’t matter to you what he did. I’m disgusted at you asking her when she is clearly distressed and it’s irrelevant to you what it was. The fact you asked has made me feel really uneasy and almost is putting me off using the site which I have just joined up to. Why would you want to know????
Don’t say to help her because if you did you would have tried to help her.
You only commented to ask her what he did and didn’t even ask how how she was.

Girl - try not to understand why he picked you for you never will and you’ll just torture yourself. A nurse in a mental hospital said that to me one time when I wondered why someone had been so bad to me that was supposed to protect and love me. Was physical abuse for me.
I hope you’re feeling better and if not then love yourself and get the help that you deserve. I’ve just joined this two minutes ago and this was the first post I saw

Why? Because he's scum.

If he had kicked a dog, you wouldn't blame the dog.

But our brains really want to keep us safe, so we look for reasons "why" so that we can avoid the situation in the future.

Try repeating to yourself, "I'm an adult now, I can now keep myself safe."

It's totally your choice, but you could try therapy. Specifically you might consider EMDR which helps your brain think about it differently.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYy2NBXkPSo

easy there, Lingway, Peter has suffered a lot at the hands of humans.

BabyGirl98...sorry to hear that you're suffering

If anyone wants to know what he did all they have to do is go read my journal. No charges have been pressed because it’s a he said she said. And it would destroy more lives than mine.

Listen BabyGirlg8 what I highly suggest you do is seek professional help. Many times we often tend to keep certain embarrassing things to ourselves and try to endure them alone. In most cases such as yours it doesn't work. You need to vent ALL of your frustrations, hurt, and pain in a proper way. Hatred, revenge, distrusting all men, depression, self blame all those things detrimental to you and your well being. You can only rise above it if you learn to let them go and that takes professional help. You need reassurance that you are not at all at fault.

I’m seeing a therapist already59 it’s just hard

So sorry for what has happened to you, and glad you are seeing a therapist. Your right, it is hard. It is good to cry those cleansing tears. But I get it, it's tiring, draining, sometimes downright exhausting. Try to think of it as strengthening you. Just as an athlete trains to gain strength, our trials strengthen us to become resilient yet understanding, giving us greater compassion for others' needs. Maybe ask the therapist to discuss some ideas to help you cope between sessions, if you haven't already. Prayers for continued strength.