but surely there is some way of me coping with bad situations other than with meds....most other people can cope fine...I just need to learn how....I just dont know

thanks sue...seeya

Have you tried self help books or natural supplements maybe?

cant concentrate enough to read self help books and have to watch what natural suplements i take because of my heart condition..
Took fish oil tablets once and had heart palpatations for days.

one day i am sure someone will have the answer i need

Could try some small books maybe and read a few pages a day. xo

would love to but so much racing through my mind....psychosis....I just cant read and take in anymore words that what i am typing here...anyway thanks for being here...gotta go...bye

Bye, hope you feel better xo

Thanks to those that stuck around to talk to me....dont have time to talk now.....loads and loads of washing to do..... BUT any suggestions would really be appreciated to help me get back on the right track without self injury....
Thanks everyone.....will try to get back to chat later....Have a great weekend.

((hugs)) didn't read through all the replies, but wanted send support your way....

Thanks....
to save everyone reading through all the replies, I will repost the main problem....

I help supervise a playgroup 2 days a week. This week I was on my own on one of the days, supervising 20 kids and about 9 parents.
all was going well, talked to one dad and he told me he had been coughing up blood for a few days, he had been to the hospital and they sent him home, they couldnt work out what was wrong...anyway, he seemed fine.
Then about half hour later while we were having morning tea he didnt look to well,...I asked him if he was ok and he said he thought his lungs were bleeding and he couldnt breath....within seconds he collapsed and I had to take charge of the situation.....someone called an ambulance while I rolled him on his side and made sure he was breathing...his partner came over...but she was to shocked to do anything....he remained going in and out of consiouseness for the next 15 minutes, while I tried talking to him and trying to let the other parents know it was over for the day, most went home, some stayed to help. I stayed calm the whole time, it was only after everyone had gone that the shock hit me and im still suffering and that was 4 days ago...I dont know why it has affected me so much and it really shouldnt.

Now as each day passes and I get less sleep each night, I am heading for rock bottom and I believe the only way out of this emotional torment is to self injure. I know it would be an instant relief, but Im trying to do the right thing and not do that....but I feel so bad and the urge is so strong.
Please any suggestions...anything to help me through this would be greatly appreciated.

Bump....gotta run again. (-;