So I've struggled with depression and anxiety for the best part of 6 years now. I've came a long way since my failed suicide attempts and hospitalisation. But right now as I type this I have no job, my driving license has been revoked but the main thing that's bothering me now is that I feel I'm living a lie with my current gf. My marriage broke up this time last year and after months of crying myself to sleep I eventually found someone. Fast forward a few months and she became pregnant with my child. The thing is I feel so terribly guilty as I struggle to sleep at night thinking about my wife (I'm still technically married) and how much I still miss her. She had originally wanted a break but after a few months it became clear she didn't want me no more. I've struggled with this for ages now. My anxious mind now keeps playing tricks with me and I ask myself am I still in love with my wife? Do I love my gf? I know the most important thing in all of this our unborn child which I will love with all my heart of that I've no doubt but is it fair on my gf just to keep 'going through the motions'. I question myself all the time and still have suicidal thoughts from time to time. I've lost all confidence in myself and I've been putting off getting a job as my anxiety hits turbo when I think of having to work again. I KNOW suicide isn't an option I really don't wanna go down that path again but I'm struggling to make my own decisions am I being selfish for having feelings still? I'm due to see my psychiatrist again in a couple of weeks so I'll be sure to speak it over with him. Thanks for reading, much love cheers.
Hello all:A long-time member here, but I haven't been on in quite a while. I'm looking for a little feedback/advice on my current situation:For well over a decade, I have been on a combination of Wellbutrin (bupropion) and Celexa (citalopram), which has more or less been working, depending on how you define "work". Late November my PCP has taken me off the Celexa, in order for me to take...
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