Self medicating via alcohol is an oxymoron; in the 'big picture' it's self-defeating & a slow suicide. It can lead to hepatitis & cirrhosis..I've seen first hand what it can do to people's careers & families. Once you come off that 'high' you feel worse than when you started - using this method to mask your problems will only intensify them when it wheres off. You're saying you will just booze some more once it wheres off..you're only playing with fire. Little do you know that your troubles have greater endurance than you - they will eventually catch up to you. This is like spending money, that you don't have, on material things that seem to make you feel better at the moment; but in the long run you still have bills that have to be paid - you're just committing financial suicide.
You can run but you can't hide from your problems; nor can you run forever..

Alcohol, when abused, is not good. I speak from my experience with abusing alcohol in the past. It almost took down and out.

I don't C anything wrong unless U are a 'problem drinker' U know it is only a problem when the money runs out......

AS far as every one else, drinking is known as self medicating....AND, when is the right time as apposed to... when is the wrong time....? I say bring on the 'moonshine'.......

party on dudes......!

Try this:

Each time you reach for your next drink, ask yourself "What am I Drinking?" (not the alcohol, but what in your heart are you "drinkning").

Why does everyone want someone to take professional help? you would rather spend 100 dollars and hour talking to a person that doesn't care just so you can have some pills? i spend 100 a month or two on alcohol and im glad with that, i am happy with what i do, God watches over me, i know he does, does it make me right to do this, no, but what else can i do, and i already do laugh at myself, and i dont care anymore, this is what has to make me happy, i like being drunk, i guess i am not that interesting when i am sober. Everyone has a coping mechanism, this one just has a fail safe if it doesn't work and its that the suicidal thoughts come back after every time, but i dont care for my life anymore, i live for as long as i am needed for others and when i am done then i am done might as well be drunk, and have a good time while that happens, maybe make some mistakes if possible.

well i pray to God that you don't injure or kill someone while driving drunk.

i will rethink my decision for the best, i do sound dumb but i am in bad place right now

You don't sound dumb. You sound lost. I am praying for you.......

I still don't believe you when you say that you like being drunk and that it makes you happy. If those things were true you wouldn't be trying to convince all of US about how happy you are. I think you're lost and confused. Someone in your life must have taught you that it's okay to abandon yourself and just give up when things get tough. Also, why don't you spend some time telling us what's really bothering you and why you feel you have to drink so much rather than spending all this energy trying to convince us of how happy you are? And I agree, please don't drink and drive. If you think your problems are bad now I can assure you that they can get much worse if you decide to drink and drive.

"The only thing that sucks is the driving part afterwards, i dont want to hurt anyone if i get into a crash or get a DUI, id rather get the chair then go to jail for that."

I hope that doesn't mean you are regularly driving drunk, because mentally ill or nor, that's a conscious decision which could kill someone else.

Alcohol is a depressant. End of. I tried it on a daily basis for three years, and it does not work.

How do you feel the morning after? How much do you need each time? Is it getting to be more and more? How much time do you lose every day as a result of drinking? Is it your aim to numb yourself every day and commit a slow, almost invisible suicide because then no one will catch you or stop you?

You have said you are in a bad place now, and I understand that. Professional help does cost a lot, and I know that AA doesn't suit everyone, but there are other options. You're still young, and you don't know how much damage you're doing to your liver unless you have tests done.

Happiness due to alcohol is fleeting and although it's cheap and accessiblke it's also an addictive confidence trick.

the only reason I suggested treatment is because you admitted to having liver damage and had to worry about stopping before you are throwing up blood.

I use to drink myself when I was younger. I know the high of alcohol and how it makes you feel less depressed. (Until the next day).

I have know people that drink with liver damage and die from it. It is a horrible death. AA and NA helped me and it does not cost anything.

After extensive personal research, I found alcohol only compounded my problems and added several new problems.

It does creep and get out of control when used to numb problems. If it's not a problem, try quitting for a few days. Do you get shaky? Can't sleep? Nausea? Irritable?

I thnk you should talk to your doctor as well. You're playing with fire.

Be well.

Be careful on the booze! I know a thing or two about alcohol...

Yes, it releases inhibitions, as well as whatever "beast" may be lurking in there, in you, until you pee it out, and the buzz subsides, and then you absolutely feel like shit, and need more alcohol to resume the high, and so it goes.

And, yes, you do NOT want to kill someone when behind the wheel of a car! If you're gonna drink, drink in your own place.

Me, I like exercise. It creates that same feeling, that same high, that same endorphin rush, and the buzz lasts a whole day, much longer than alcohol.

May I suggest a gym membership instead of the bottle? You're young and male, look like you'd be very strong if you did cardio and lift the weights, bro!

You'll feel like absolute shit the first time you work out, because you'll be sweating out all that booze and toxin, but the NEXT time you work out, you'll begin to feel really strong, because you're compounding the first workout session's detox with a new burst of strength. As well as feel warm and wonderful, inside. The endorphins of a good sweat are great, really powerful.

Try it!

Word of Warning: Like they sai "do not operate heavy machinery", DO NOT work out when coming off a hangover. If you already have a headache from the hangover, the pain of the headache will become EXCRUCIATING when you try to push weight. I have personal experience with this lol.

Also, get involved with an exercise GROUP. You need that continual support and motivation. Plus, exercising with a group is just plain FUN.

You can't fly with the eagles when you're surrounded by turkeys. I don't know what kind of crowd you're hanging out with now, but most people in your age group, early 20s, are hell-bent on self-destruction. So was it the same when I was your age. I remember early 20s well.

You all seem "cool" when you're all drinking; like you said, you feel on top of the world; not so cool when you're all hurling into the toilet bowl at 5am or limping around the apartment like a bunch of decrepid old fucks, zombies, next day with horrible headaches.