Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I was on the anxiety board for a while. I have been so very nervous and the doctor prescribed Buspar which I swear made me more nervous but now I am getting depressed again. I think it is reality. Every morning I wake up and I feel sick to my stomach because I remember. I realize my fiance has died and I will never have love again. I realize that I am broke and can't get a job and will be lucky if I do. Then my elderly neighbor is always calling for favors because she is ill and her so called successful kids do almost nothing for her. The stray cat I was feeding moved in and is so grateful and follows me everywhere and my other cats are not happy and I worry how am I going to take care of him also. The bills keep piling up. I went to a temp agency and they were encouraging but that is their job. I have been on the unemployment board and everyone there is having trouble finding work. I realize my life is over and I guess I can live with how bad it has turned out if I just had a job.
People said after my fiance died that there will be sunshine and things will improve but they are so much worse. I do have a seasonal job that starts in January but am in trouble now financially. I realize that people say things will get better so they feel better and I would say that to someone also and I actually believed it and had hope for a bit. I am going to write my doctor tomorrow but she can't do much because I can't afford any real treatment I can't imagine living like this for years. Does anyone else get so depressed that you are actually sick? I don't see how any kind of meds would work when my life is so bad.
QP
People said after my fiance died that there will be sunshine and things will improve but they are so much worse. I do have a seasonal job that starts in January but am in trouble now financially. I realize that people say things will get better so they feel better and I would say that to someone also and I actually believed it and had hope for a bit. I am going to write my doctor tomorrow but she can't do much because I can't afford any real treatment I can't imagine living like this for years. Does anyone else get so depressed that you are actually sick? I don't see how any kind of meds would work when my life is so bad.
QP
Even then the weird one with me was...All I needed was a glass of 100% fruit juice first thing in the morning.
Or to just get your mind off your thoughts of him, could you get a small volunteer job. Sometimes if you get out and about, and in a work place just volunteering, something might come up that is a paying job.
It's just a thought
Since you like cats and maybe other animals, maybe you could get a volunteer job at with a Vet. Sometimes they need a person to feed the animals or walk the dogs, etc.
Good Luck, and try to have faith that things will get better.
Money worries are really scary. Have you thought about
going to a community clinic? It's where I go and they see
people on a sliding scale. Big Hugs
And yes, I feel depressed sometimes with physical sickness. A lot of people try cymbalta I think to help with the physical pain too.
I know how hard money problems can be. I live on disabilty which is crappy income.
Just know you are not alone!
I know what you're going through. I lost my wife 3 years ago, and I still struggle with it every minute of every day. I even dream of her most nights.
I've also gotten physically sick because of the depression. I started eating healthier and getting regular exercise, and it helped quite a bit. It is hard though. I don't have much of an appetite anymore and I'm also broke.
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your fiance, and your financial situation. If you ever want to talk, let me know.