But there are also some other beautiful things- like family. So thinking of them, I think we should not attempt suicide

I understand, I want to die every day. I beg god every night to take me in my sleep. I absolutely hate living. Everything is painful. When I hear about other people dying I get so jealous - why not me?!! There are people who die who have family and friends, I have none. I think about suicide all the time, every moment of my life is painful. I'm sorry I have nothing positive to tell you, I just want you to know you aren't the only one who feels this way.

dear heretic,
why are you so alone,
sorry but I was somewhat in the same boat,
worked like a dog for years and
didn't get married until 50 and then divorced and
no kiddies and family small
and getting smaller.
Now, I've made up my mind to get back into life,
job, friends, look for a man with kids, volunteer,
but it is work
it doesn't just knock on our door,
it has been painful and I'm just tired of
not doing something about it,
Just try a little to make take some action
each day and see if it doesn't turn around.
good luck

so where is fluterify,
he has been talking suicide since Jan 26,
one month,
it has started quite a landslide of responses
and now we don't know where he is.

She is still here.

I tried last weekend, but it didnt work. Haven't decided whether or not to try again. I just hurt so much. Dont feel like eating. Don't feel like reading even though I love to read. Don't even want to go shopping, though I love to shop. Tonight I'm even pushing my dog away. Just want everyone to leave me alone. Just dont want to be here anymore. Just sitting and staring at the wall.

I feel the heavy black cloud lifting up off of me.It's tangible. And I feel myself trying to hold on to it. Trying to not let it go. Why would I not want it to go?

I have to do it too. But how?