How to do it, how to do it, how to do it...?

I have a way in mind. :(

fluterify, today, I feel as down as anything. I don't have friends and few family members, and those family members just tolerate me. I'm struggling with health concerns and depression and anxiety. Most times I struggle to pay bills and feel vey alone in the world.

My point is, my situation has made me feel the very same way. Just no hope at all. I feel as if I'm a bad person, cursed, just all around nuisance even. But through sharing here I have remained alive. It would help maybe if you tell us what is going on or the things that are bothering you, so that we may relate.

I've been through all kinds of things, so a judge I could not be. You started this post in January and here it is february. Do you think that you could make it a little longer? Don't you think sharing your story would not only help you, but also help someone else feeling this way? Coming back to your post today has helped me.

please come back and talk to us

What do you want me to say?

I'm sorry that you are feeling extremely distressed. It is a very humbling and consuming feeling. I'm here if you need to talk. I'm also wondering if you are involved in therapy? And hoping that if you are you consult your therapist, because he/she might be able to help dissuade you from these tormenting thoughts, (since they probably know your situation and yourself more than us). What has you gravitating toward these extreme thoughts? I have also been suicidal before and have been hospitalized 3 times for it. I don't want you to do something that in time would dissipate. I am here if you need to talk.

say whatever you needs...vent, yell, cry, whatever comes to your mind...we are here for you

Hi Fluterify-
I hope you are still with us. Don't give the devil satisfaction. God created you. He loves you and I know I've tried suicide years ago, you might not see it now but you are here for a reason. We all are.
((((HUGS)))) to you

I do not know when but I know I HAVE to do this.

Stay strong you can get through this! I believe in you.
Praying that you will feel better!

fluterify, I do not even know you and I would care. We are here to help each other, at least that is why I came here for help. You are in a very depressive state right now and you have to seek out help before you make this decision. You came here to discuss it so you are seeking help. Look for a support group in you area and get out there. call a help line to discuss what you are going through. commit yourself into the hospital for some intensive therapy. A week in the hospital may help you out and it usually is just about a week. I have been in the hospital three times this past year and it got me through this feeling.

That's one of the most selfish things a human being could ever do. My father and my boyfriend, both shot themselves, back in 2012. They left me and everyone else who loved them, completely broken. I've thought about killing myself, more times than I can count... but I never would, because I'm not selfish and you shouldn't be either. Don't leave the people that care for you, behind to suffer and to deal with what you couldn't. I'm not trying to be harsh, but I get very upset when I hear people say, they want to kill themselves. To me, it's like saying, you're gonna destroy other people's lives, because you can't deal with your own.

Don't know if it is the truth or not....people say.....don't kill yourself...you'll go to hell. That in itself has stopped me.

I think about it everyday but I don't have life insurance and I don't want to leave her stuck with the expense of burying me. Who knows, maybe that is why I put off buying it.

I am miserable, I hate life right now and if were not for my daughter and grandchild I don't know what I would do. I miss my Momma.

Sometimes I wonder why all of us that sit around and complain and think about death should not have to swap souls with someone that is clinging and fighting for their life. There are many out there who this very second is fighting for their last breath. I should be more grateful for mine. Would of, should of, could of, if only it were that easy.

I know this post didn't make you feel jolly but whatever you are going through I hope but I hope you find a way to make it better.

I also have to do it. this life can just give u pain