:'( I can't do this any more, I can not keep on living.

You say you want to end it all if that were true you would not have posted here I think what you really want is somone to talk to we are here for you don't give up

Don't give up Fluterify, I can assure you that the 'real' you is a wonderful, unique and beautiful person. Depression is a horrible, horrible thing, we probably all on here have thought your way at least once, I tried to commit suicide a few months back, I still live with the thoughts in my head, the recurring endless playlist of my mind telling me I'm such an evil, nasty person who can't and isn't worthy of love. I struggle to get out my bed every day and sometimes I really wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up but I know deep down somewhere inside me is the 'real' me, too many people tell me so and I bet you have someone who cares and loves you for they will know you are too special to give up hope. Can you think of anything, anything or anyone at all you can talk to? By talking on here you are asking for help to live, trust me you DESERVE to be on this planet as much as the next person. Force yourself to do something that YOU like or even used to like doing, it probably won't feel good but even taking a shower and just enjoying the water on your skin is a start, you are strong, and old saying one step at a time and if you feel like being back to square one just start by getting up out of bed and treating yourself to that shower or whatever. Stay strong :-)

I have no brilliant words. sorry - it is just not my gift. But here is my wish for you..................

I wish you PEACE. In your mind, in your heart, in your life.

Gods blessings to you.

Why can't I do this, it would be so easy.

Don't do it....listen...we all want to, or have wanted to...but if you give it time, the feelings will pass.....hang in there, and if you need to call a hotline. They are so helpful......sometimes to talk to someone who doesn't know you...even if you just ramble and hang up, you might feel better...

Flurerify - please message me - not sure if you remember me.

Sometimes it gets scary huh? We can find and share the light. X

You may be surprised at the number of people that would miss you if you were gone!! I tried to commit suicide in October of 2010. Tried to down as much of my boyfriend's methadone as I could. It made me unconscious for the better part of 12 hours before my b/f knew something was up because he couldn't wake me up!! He said he would never leave me and I found this was true when I accidentally (on purpose) took my b/f's morphine pills just last week. When I say accidentally (on purpose), it means that there were like these voices in my head telling me to take the morphine pills and that it would quiet down the voices. Unfortunately, it just caused me to become unconscious and my b/f to call an ambulance and then to spend the better part of 6 hours in the ER!!

Believe me when I tell you that you know how many people care about you if you read over the responses to your post!!

Please don't go through with this!! Things will look much better with time!!

Not sure if this will help or not. In fact most of my comments seem to get deleted or removed but here goes anyway. I had similar feelings for a while. I prayed to be taken every day. I lived recklessly for a while in order that there would be ample opportunity for it to happen. When nothing happened I devised a plan to do it myself, neatly and painlessly. But then things began to inexplicably improve, slowly over time. I can't put a finger on exactly how. I didn't change my meds, hadn't really talked about it in a while. Maybe there's still a plan for me. I don't know. I guess my point is take your time. Keep your options open. Stay close to the people, places, things, faith, whatever it is you love or once loved. Stay engaged. Talk about it as much as possible. It can, and will, improve if given an opportunity.

:'(

i can relate to all of the comments,Im not afraid to die,but if a truck hit me today, so be it.im always in awe of those people who are jovial,in a good mood,bubbly types.i guess what does stop me from ending it is those/family that would be devastated if i did it.

Fluterify, you don't have to do anything!! That includes killing yourself!! Time will heal all wounds...it's a well worn phrase...but, I think it makes sense here!!

Call a hotline go to the ER, get some help.. Your family and friends would miss you terribly. Nothing is forever, this is just a short term problem. Get on meds and talk to a therapist.

We have all had those voices saying " End the pain, end the suffering" But we only die once. You survive each day. So stay strong and live one more day. Think about that when you are in that dark hole. Just one more day. Go to the hospital or have someone stay with you until it passes. I felt that way everyday for months. I had to remind myself to hang on for 1 more day, be strong ...its not time for you to go u have to hang in there.