So, the SO is showing me love, encouragement, um... Even some sex. And I get suspicious.... Self sabotage much?!?!. He is really doing amazing things, he opened his own business, he got custody of his kids, he is losing weight and working out....and what do I do? I start to think about myself, and how fat I am... And how I feel inadequate... Why can't I just be happy for him without panicking that he will leave me. I start thinking this is all a ploy, he is just using me and as soon as he gets enough money, or guts, or another chick he will be out the door. Holy hell what is wrong with me? I shod be happy.. I should be showering him with praise... But instead tonight I tell him I'm feeling insecure. And because he doesn't give me what I'm begging for... I pour and start a fight. I am a fucked up individual. I need help.
Day 5 has not been bad. I know I’m a LONG way off, but for some of you that have some months and years under your belt- how long before you stop thinking about it? I spent so long planning on where to get it, where to hide it, how to pitch the bottles etc.Just wondering. And thanks for the supporting comments. It might be silly but it helps.
Hi all. I have a question for the pros here. I’ve been sober for over nine months now. Feel great. I love my sobriety. It’s become the biggest building block in forming myself into a better man. I live a very healthy life. Spirit is getting stronger daily. I don’t think about drinking at all. Am I a lucky one who was able to flip that swith for good in my brain? I understand that I have...