So, the SO is showing me love, encouragement, um... Even some sex. And I get suspicious.... Self sabotage much?!?!. He is really doing amazing things, he opened his own business, he got custody of his kids, he is losing weight and working out....and what do I do? I start to think about myself, and how fat I am... And how I feel inadequate... Why can't I just be happy for him without panicking that he will leave me. I start thinking this is all a ploy, he is just using me and as soon as he gets enough money, or guts, or another chick he will be out the door. Holy hell what is wrong with me? I shod be happy.. I should be showering him with praise... But instead tonight I tell him I'm feeling insecure. And because he doesn't give me what I'm begging for... I pour and start a fight. I am a fucked up individual. I need help.
can DS look into it?
Hi there, does anyone else use food to self-medication? I am in a really bad cycle of binge eating at night and then feeling terrible about myself all day. I know it makes my pain worse cause let's face it, you don't binge on carrots, I binge on sugar and carbs and both cause inflammation for me, a major contributor to my pain. So why can I take care of others but not myself? Anyone else dealing...