Hello. I am new to this group. I'm on here today because my partner of twenty years just threw me away. I had a couple of rough years. My parents passed away last year six months apart from each other. Then I started having health problems and was diagnosed with uterine cancer. My partner was distant at times but still supportive. A couple weeks ago I had to undergo a complete hysterectomy. I am only 43. It was devastating to learn about the cancer but the best alternative was to have the surgery. I knew something had been amiss with him for a little while. He became very secretive about his phone, social media and email. This was never a problem before. He was working out and lost a lot of weight in the last few months and would tell me how all the women said he was hot. He would not sleep with me, kiss me or hug me. I knew there was something else to it. The day after my surgery he would sleep in the bed with me even though I needed help getting up to go to the bathroom. I had my post op last Thursday and was told that I had what they call residual cancer and needed to have tests done every four months for two years. That same night he told me he was keeping contact with a stripper he met on a business trip. Hr Said thet were just talking but that he had sex with her when he was on his trip. Just writing this down seems so pitiful. It doesn't even seem true. We have been together for 20 years and have two teenagers together. Since that night he has told me he hates me, that I disgust him, that I am old and ugly, he wants me to leave. I have no where to go. And I can't quit my job I need my benefits so I can keep the appointments. He said he didn't care he hopes I get cancer and die. I don't know where this is all coming from. We shared a life together, had family get together, etc., he told me he wants nothing to do with me or my family. On top of that I feel my body changing from the surgery. I feel so helpless. He said if I do not leave he will have me removed. Our kids are a wreck they try to talk to him but he lashed out st them. I don't even know who he is. I am so scared.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the people I can not change;The courage to change the one person I can;And the wisdom to know that person is me.
i do try now to change the things i canwhich is me from the inside out. HUGS