What happened?We have been together for 20
Hello. I am new to this group. I'm on here today because my partner of twenty years just threw me away. I had a couple of rough years. My parents passed away last year six months apart from each other. Then I started having health problems and was diagnosed with uterine cancer. My partner was distant at times but still supportive. A couple weeks ago I had to undergo a complete hysterectomy. I am only 43. It was devastating to learn about the cancer but the best alternative was to have the surgery. I knew something had been amiss with him for a little while. He became very secretive about his phone, social media and email. This was never a problem before. He was working out and lost a lot of weight in the last few months and would tell me how all the women said he was hot. He would not sleep with me, kiss me or hug me. I knew there was something else to it. The day after my surgery he would sleep in the bed with me even though I needed help getting up to go to the bathroom. I had my post op last Thursday and was told that I had what they call residual cancer and needed to have tests done every four months for two years. That same night he told me he was keeping contact with a stripper he met on a business trip. Hr Said thet were just talking but that he had sex with her when he was on his trip. Just writing this down seems so pitiful. It doesn't even seem true. We have been together for 20 years and have two teenagers together. Since that night he has told me he hates me, that I disgust him, that I am old and ugly, he wants me to leave. I have no where to go. And I can't quit my job I need my benefits so I can keep the appointments. He said he didn't care he hopes I get cancer and die. I don't know where this is all coming from. We shared a life together, had family get together, etc., he told me he wants nothing to do with me or my family. On top of that I feel my body changing from the surgery. I feel so helpless. He said if I do not leave he will have me removed. Our kids are a wreck they try to talk to him but he lashed out st them. I don't even know who he is. I am so scared.
I can't stop obsessing over my ex. Especially when I'm home alone at night. This used to be my favorite time of day to unwind and pig out and surf the net/read/etc. I was perfectly content doing these things alone even when he was in my life. Now- I can't eat. Everything I see, hear, smell- reminds me of him in some way. It's a long story. We have a three year history of heartache and romance,...
I have been married for 10 herewith two young children and the divorce will be final any day now. In the past 2 years I have been asked to leave 3 times and have came back each time. This time my wife left me. I thought it had a been to much and for us to keep doing this was not with it anymore I guess I felt like I was just supposed to let her go and give up. After a few months I have realized...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=brkhPeI-jTMhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7Co4LHyO2kI've been doing some deep hard work surrounding shame, or rather 'toxic shame'.I found this talk painful to listen to, however the video gave me more eye openinginformation towards understanding and processing
Hi hope you're all well how's everyone's recovery journey going ? My last few weeks have been bad have had bad anxiety attacks , sleeping and eating routine has gone out of the window after having building work done in the house . Feel lazy unmotivated to complete my jobs and like a victim ,negative and low environment at home with mental health problems . Have had old feelings resurface and a...