I am sorry for you but I can't help I am new at this

It's going to hurt, until one morning, you wake up and realize it hurts less than it did the day before. It just takes time.

I'm trying my best to keep that mindset. I just feel so alone.

whats your story?

is this a fresh breakup? what are the circumstances?

I wrote it in an entry in my journal explaining the whole situation. but yes its a pretty fresh break up and I don't want to feel this way anymore

how long were you together?

Hang in there man. It dose take time. It helped me to let my anger stage really take over and work through my grief by degrading her to what she really was. I mean when you feel an emotion comming on about how great she was then think of something that was totally unkind or selfish that she did. Cancel out the feeling of missing what once was great with something negative. It really helpped me a lot to put her in perspective of what she really was and how she really treated me Vs what I missed about her and how i PUT HER ON A PEDISTAL.

BEST OF LUCK

Welcome to DS, you are among friends. We all are where you are or have been. To alot of us its still fresh in our minds.

The first days are really hard. Share it with us, share your feelings and thoughts with friends and family. Find a counseler if you need that too, especially if you don't have some confidents to vent too.

And cry. Its okay to cry. Or puke. Drink water whenever you can. Try to eat healthy if your stomach will let you. I survived on carrots, strawberries, and watermellon for a week.

3 1/2 months which is why I don't understand why I'm so down. I wear my heart on my sleeve and maybe that's my problem. I've been through a worse break up but since I don't have anyone super close to spend time with I feel so alone

well 3 1/2 months is certainly long enough to fall in love

Yeah 3-1/2 is plenty of time, especially for us hopeless romantics it seems.

I'm trying to remember back to the freshest days of the breakup

I remember feeling sort of numb pain, like there was icewater flowing through my veins

it was an ordeal to feel the ground under my feet I was so detached from life really because my heart was broken, and thats all I could feel

I remember it was the most horrible feeling

I just want to be able to sleep a whole night and go through my morning routine without thinking I'm going to hear from her and maybe eat some breakfast. I get through the day and feel somewhat better but when I'm off work and I'm all alone I can't help but think about her.

I keep telling myself that what she did was so mean, low, foul, etc but the pain is all thats too real. I've tried crying and can't only at some points then I stop myself. I know I made mistakes too which is why I feel like i should be the one apologizing. And my dumb ass sent her a long email yesterday telling her how i felt and I was sorry for my mistakes and i missed her. I just hate the thought of her with someone else. its destroying me. I want to feel better but its so hard.

Hello grizzly
Welcome to DS and *hugs* to you.
First of all you shouldnt feel so bad about sending the letter. I did the same thing twice I have since then gone NC (no contact) and it helps somewhat.
I spend my days alternating between crying, feeling sorry for things I didnt do, missing him, hating him for betraying me and then back to sadness all over again.
This is normal. And you are going to have to feel this pain out I am afraid. I am going through it too, and there is no magic pill to stop the pain and the roller coaster of emotions.
I suggest you let yourself cry and process the hurt. It gets better each day even if its slightly. My appetite came back after 2 weeks.
Forgive yourself for the letter.

Even if I don't get anything back from her, it was ok to send? I just feel like i spilled my heart out a bunch of times before the break up and did it again yesterday and let me pride down and that's really hard for me.