Hey everyone, this is my first post and would like to introduce myself to you guys. So basicaly it started off with me going out with this girl who has a kid already. I met her on a dating site after my first breakup but because she had a child I knew I wouldn't go out with her but I am a friendly person so I ended up being her friend. I eventually learned how to be happy alone after my first breakup and 2 years went by and I was still friends with this girl. She eventually got a boyfriend and she would talk about things with me as a friend and i didnt' mind this as i thought of her nothing but a friend as well. Eventually she broke up and a few months later she got me to go out with her. I liked her too but because of the child I didn't see a future. Then she said she wanted someone to go out with her and just get along with her child so I thought about it and I decided to go out with her and we went out for almost 1.5 years. Eventually things changed and she was trying to pressure me to so many things that I wasn't ready for as I was still in school. I broke up with her around October of 2016. My reason why I broke up with her was because I realized how dishonest she was to me and she topped it off by allowing this guy (who had a crush on her) to get drunk and sleep over. She loves to drink and drink excessively which started to bother me as I started caring about her more as time passed. This night she had a night with her friends/coworkers, which she didn't tell me about. We don't live together but not too far from each other. At this time we were having problems, she always likes to start a fight with me for stupid reasons and whenever there are problems I like to communicate and fix things; however, she wasn't like this. She said she wanted her space so for 2 days we didn't talk. That one morning when that guy slept over, I gave her a call and she got mad at me because it was early. 11am is early? I knew she was acting shady and I show up at her house, she opens the door and I see this guy's shoes. I knew who it was right away as she told me about this guy and she knew how I felt about this guy and I know what guy's want especially if they have a crush or thinks of a girl of more than just a friend. I was about to go in and kick his ass but she didn't allow me in. Mind you, he was the only one in the house, all her friend's/coworkers left. Apparently that guy got drunk and ended up passing out. She said nothing happened but how can I believe her. After this day she said she was going to be honest with me and she told me she was going to do the same thing next weekend but wouldn't allow 1 guy to sleep alone. The next weekend she does the same thing and she got drunk and called me. I could tell she caught some feelings for this guy. She wanted me to come over after they all left and I waited up till 5am for her and her friends were still there. Because of that one guy i wasn't comfortable with, I wanted to sleep over, and she still didn't allow me in. She said it would be awkward. She was putting that guy's feelings before mine and I was her BF. That really hurt me. I started feeling sick, threw up, felt depressed, and I knew she wasn't the girl for me so I broke up with her even though I love her. She then got upset and said she wanted me and no one else, yet she still leaned on that guy (who liked her), for comfort. Even though I knew she wasn't for me it was hard to stop seeing her and eventually she started putting me down and make it seem like it was my fault. She used to say, "you wanted this breakup, not me. You put yourself in this situation." Eventually I cut her out cuz of the various things she used to say to put me down and then she started calling me more. I eventually started ignoring her calls and from december 24 till january 12, she left me alone and when she stopped calling me it allowed me to start getting better. I blocked her number but the only way she can get to me was when she calls private so i don't pickup private calls. Sometime during december while I was ignoring her calls she sends me a message on instagram, saying, "your really going to ignore my calls?" and she puts a picture up with that guy kissing her on the cheek. After a while when she called me january 12 I picked up and we had a better conversation but I still need my space to heal and I told her this. I told her once I am ready I will contact her and we can be friends but right now isn't a good time. She was ok with it but then she kept calling and won't leave me alone. It's like she is trying to reopen my wound. I feel like she is being selfish because maybe something happened with that guy so now she is trying to come back to me because she said she still wants me or maybe she is going out with that guy and is still talking to me behind his back. Who knows if she did the same thing to me when she went out with me as well. I hate how much pain she is bringing to me. What should I do? I thought about changing my number but I am looking for a job and employers have my number already. I feel like a wreck right now. Me and my ex had a conversation last night as well but it seems like she is trying to manipulate me to get me back by saying all the good memories and how she would treat me better. I feel like she wants a backup plan to guarantee that someone is gona go out with her if things don't work out with whoever she is going out with currently. There are so many bad things about her that I didn't mention but that would make the post even more long. I only started realizing this when I had time for myself and to write journals of my feelings in the morning. I feel like she was being fake with me just to get me to like her. I feel like she is like that with everyone, not just me. She is the type of person who likes to be loved but not give it back once he starts receiving it. I feel like she probably would be a dangerous friend to even have. I just want to move on and be happy again! What do you guy's suggest? What should I do?