My anger toward her has returned YAY! 

As you know she spends a lot of nights at his house. When she does that during the week she comes home early the next morning to get the littles ready for school. I have to leave for work well before they do. 

Today she informs me that she wont be coming home in the morning "if its ok". She would like to get some extra rest. Im thinking, How about not staying up until 1AM at your boyfriends house if you need some extra rest, but whatever. I say ok just to a avoid talking about it. I informed our two youngest that I will be getting them up a little earlier in the morning. The nine year old asked why.  I told him mom is staying at a friends house and wont be home in the morning. This saddened him greatly.  I have been very surprised by how well all of the kids have taken the news, but there are still trigger moments and this was one for him. I could tell right away by his follow up questions that he was wondering why mom would rather be with her friend than her sons. I did my best to make him feel better and he seemed to be ok by the end of the talk. I tried not to sugar coat too much but I also didnt  tell him anything he didnt need to know. I cant imagine what kind of confusion and emotions would be brought up if they knew mom has another boyfriend and Dad hasnt even moved out yet. 

Im not surprised by anything she does anymore, I am however often very disapointed. The lack of respect and or common courtesy she shows for her family is amazing. She asked me a few days ago when we had our very nice talk. " What can I do to help you through this". At the time I was back in beaten puppy land so I said " give us another shot."  What a stupid answer that was. What I shouldve said was, how about you stop having an affair and constantly rubbing my face in it on a daily basis with your mean self centered actions. How about for once you think about the feelings of someone other than yourself.

I have expressed my feelings on her affair so many times I have lost count and it has never mattered. If she wants to be with him when I am gone, fine, whatever. But to continue to have total disregard for how it makes me feel knowing I am currently powerless to avoid it is just evil. She has her excuses of course " theres nothing going on between us, were just good friends". "im just not comfortable at home when your there". Guess what Im not either, but you know what,

Im not going to go shack up with a whore just to have another place to sleep.

And if she thinks for one second I will ever be ok with her now, two time home-wrecker of a "friend" ever being around my kids she is crazy.

If she wants a fight she will get one!  I'll be damned if Im just going to stand by and watch my kids be in the influence of that tag team. Hell no!  

I dont know if there is anything I could legally do but I would fight for anything I could.  

I am so angry right now I could breathe fire. Tomorrow I may wake like a sobbing baby , but for now Im going downstairs to beat on the ole punching bag for a while.