A couole days ago I posted about my divorce being a week away. Well yesterday my stbx texted me wanting to talk. I called him he said he wanted to come down and see me. I told him no I don't want to see you. Even though in my heart I really wanted it. Why because I'm an idiot who loves him l. Any way he said he was coming and I let him. We talked and fought then had that fantasy moment where time stopped we held each other something that I have wanted for months. I have missed him so much it honestly felt like a dream. And then I made a huge mistake I slept with him. He told me he wanted to work things out with us. He now lives 4 hours away so that make a it difficult we were trying to figure it out. And what would happen well he went home this morning. I told him I was really scared that he would change his mind. He said don't worry we will figure it out. He went home and went to sleep. All day i knew that he was goimg to change his mind something was going to happen. I was right. He texted me later telling me he has doubts and thinks we shouldn't do and he is sorry. I'm so stupid why did I do this to myself I don't understand what is wrong with me why???  I can't stop crying I'm so tired of this torture and I did to myself why would I even think to trust him I feel so stupid