Well I am mostly stable.......I just haven't been able to sleep in months and I am afraid that the geedon stopped working because the immense someone's gonna break into my house and kill me paranoia's returned and I tried to explain that to my pdoc last month and she refused to do anything about it.......apparantly I'm on the max amount of geodon anyone should have and that's 160 mg a day......and it doesn't feel like it's keeping me stable anymore.

BP, if you dont call a crisis center or your husband, I am going to track the police........get help, did you get the attention you needed? NOW GET HELP

my friend just told me she would be able to watch my daughter for a couple of days starting tomrrow.....I am going to explain to the pdoc tomorrow morning that I want to end it all and if the psych unit don't fix me I will....and see where it gets me.....I WILL get help tomorrow. I PROMISE.

I agree with Shelley...tough love but brutal honesty. call you husband, bring him home now. get to the hospital now. dont take no for an answer. dont wait until tomorrow...do it now.

uncle

My husband can't come home any sooner than 9 pm.....If I call his cell he won't answer it......he's not allowed phone calls while he's working.....the latest I can get anyone to watch the child would be tomorrow at noon when I have my appointment.

Sweetie, I know I can get tough, but dammit, you are not making sense. You say you are stable, you cry for help, you want drugs, you dont want to help yourself, just drugs to do it, you whine about your husband, then say you get treats for shutting up or doing what he says..........DO YOU NOT SEE THE IGNORANCE IN ALL OF THIS?

You cry for help implying suicide, upset us, then retract. What is it you want from us? You can get positive attention too, ya know?

Call your husband and go to the hospital, then your friend can watch your daughter. Call your pdoc, tell her what you told us, she will admit you. Anything else you do, I will just think it is a ruse for attention and isnt necessary. We all care for you here and love you, why do this to us with the false threats.

It is obvious you are desperate, but you know how we feel about hearing sucide hear. I put you in the crisis center to attract people here.

Call, or I will...............

You are really loved here. I think you should get help ASAP. ((hug))

If your daughter or his is ina serious accident, what do you do? How do you reach him? How did you talk to him earlier?

Do the same.........call his work and tell him you need him home. It isnt like you are calling him home for a cold, you are talking about suicide. Or are you? What are you saying exactly, you cried out and now dont mean it?

Been there, done that. I was just released last night. I totally understand the not sleeping and the axiety that builds up more and more.
In my opinion, you really need to call your hubby and let him know this is an emergency and you need professional help RIGHT NOW...
Good luck to you and you'll be in my thoughts and prayers..
I had my own post last thrs I believe. It's been bumped up top again now. It's the one that says....No sleep for nearly 2 weeks.......I got all the advice you are getting.....go the the ER

The Geodon could put you in a coma or give you brain damage, damage your liver, make you have a heart attack. Really who knows what it would do? There has to be a way to get a hold of your husband in case of emergencies. Just do it and go to the hospital.

hey i know i dont say alot on here but U DONT NEED TO DO IT PLZ CALL ur pdoc or go get help hugss

hey I think some of us are getting a little over involved...Shelley calm down don't get ruffled by this. You are going hysterical over this. You can't control what other people do or say. You can give your opinion but that's about it. BipolarPrincess is an adult. She is responsible for her actions. She is not psychotic by the sound of things. I know when I get suicidal my moods flucuate back and forth. You have to live and let live. Don't get so personally involved. It's only the computer...people say what they want here. You don't really know them.

you could give yourself brain damage, that's for sure.