you know, I don't have the "good" stories about getting drunk and high and doing all those "fun" things that I hear about (and used to get Jealous of, but not anymore)...

my manias used to start out just Fine, like my prior story about the Jap garden, until I go all delusional and people go "whoa"....

When I was on an extended mission trip, helping translate and work in the clinic, etc, we went to the largest city and got to meet with government officials about what we were doing. I was well-behaved, "normal", etc - until the next day, when I went completely AWOL from the facility, hitch-hiked back to the city and told the officials I was there to Stay, and bring about Change, and PERsonally fund the cleaning up of the contaminated water source in our area...

when I couldn't Possibly afford to do that.

Stuff like that. I'm just Fine - until I'm Not.

How long have you been diagnosed Linasmom? x

I was diagnosed a year and half ago. I started showing serious signs of bipolar disorder at about 18.

why, miss lou?

wild freakin horses wouldn't get me to say...!!

I assumed you just had first ep. (the starting on lithium thing). oops, now I know :) x

oh, gosh - I had been misdiagnosed for years....always for "depression" and my PTSD.....it wasn't until my breakdown (and by that, I mean, I was threatening to kill myself" last year that I finally got diagnosed correctly.

And the correct diagnosis has now been confirmed by four separate doctors.

It's been trying.

sounds it x

sex with next door neigbour smashing up bosses office giveing out booze in supermarket thinking i was jesus and i could heal. ive been sectioned 3times diagnosed 2000 now on lithium 1000mg seems to be helping last time in hospital november 2009 have 3 kids and partner god knows how we are still together. also slept with 8 women in one day was very manic.i so dont want any of that again so much shame and guilt

neglected my kids while depressed and pushed them away entirely while psychotic in fear of hurting anyone. Affairs and careless sex with men and women. Becoming obsessed with certain guys and making a complete and total fool of myself by compulsively calling them and all. Lots more then this, just can't really talk about it on the board. =-)

Threw a Nintendo at my boyfriend's head

I went to a hotel ( which i payed for) with this guy who I'd been seeing as a fuck friend for 5 yrs, who was 10 yrs my senior. It was new year's eve, I also payed for the food and his gas, fucked him all night, he brought me home the next day and never spoke to me again.

I understand about the marriage thing, smile. I married my third husband (don't ask!!) while Completely delusional - we had met before, but we hadn't dated or anything. I just up and explained my delusion and asked him to marry me, which he did.

Uh, the sex topic I'm avoiding. lol

credit card spending has been the biggest for me. I'm in debt now thanks to some
manic periods and a mixed episode.

Also, I've messed around with a lot of guys I never would have if I had been stable. I was just up for days and there was nothing to do at night so I would jump from different guys. I didn't sleep with any of them luckily, that could have led to diseases and problems. But I grew up in a Catholic family and went to Catholic schools all my life. My behavior hasn't reflected that when I'm manic.

I've also just drank too much. Too many blackouts that could have been really dangerous for me.

Just overall shitty behavior when I'm manic. I get irrate and angry. I even get violent at times, punching walls and sometimes people in the arm.

But that's just my experience. I like when we all share like this. It helps remind me I'm not the only one who's "screwed-up" or made mistakes because of manic episodes or being bipolar.

Had an affair with a married man... but what was worse was that I got pissed at him and told his wife...... almost lost my house so I could buy african violets..... The absolute worst..... I missed my daughters own breakdown because I was so into myself..........

I have a slight bladder problem. The other day we went shopping and I was in the dressing room. Yes, my bladder hit and I pissed all over the floor. Thankfully, I had my pants off so I could put them on dry. I am so embarrassed, I just left it there and got out of the store as soon as I could.