Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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jfulk
jfulk
This morning, I laid in bed having a strange desire to cut. I'm really ashamed to even be typing this, but I know that this is a group of people that I can surely talk about this with and get some advice.

I've never wanted to cut a day in my life. It's never appealed to me and has certainly not felt like a necessity. Right now, I don't really want to and think it's silly to even think about it.

But I was thinking about what a great relief it would be. I don't think I'm cycling and I don't have an abnormal amount of stress. Hell, I'm on vacation for 2 weeks, I should feel great.

What if these thoughts continue? I'm not suicidal. I could use some help here. I know I'm probably the neediest person in this group and I'm sorry.

Thanks everyone and happy holidays.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I cut a lot. I always have. Physical pain is better than emotional pain. And that physical pain is such a rush that you can literally get addicted to it. I would NOT recommend cutting. I've cut too deep before and I've gotten infections, too, because I'll use ANYTHING sharp. But I still cut.
deleted_user
deleted_user
hey. I am a cutter. well actually a carver. I cut and burn symbols typically. it does feel good. be careful you dont start. its hard to stop. I find that if you really dont want to cut yourself then you have to be willing to cycle down. It takes a lot for me to not hurt myself and I get depressed that I cant do it but I have learned to use will power to protect my body... at the expense of my mood.
deleted_user
deleted_user
No one wants to bring this up, and I hate to be the one to bring it. But you also need to be prepared for the possibility that you may be becomming a vampire.

In case this happens you should confide in a trusted friend to be standing by to drive a stake through your heart. You don't want to know what it is like to be one of the living dead.

Just kidding, trying to make you feel better through laughter. Merry Christmas!