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Still suicidal

Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228

and very withdrawn today. My therapist wants Siri see me again later in the week. All I keep thinking about is swallowing those pills. I really should wait until after the party Friday. Let everyone celebrate the kids birthdays. I don’t know how much longer I can wait. I just don’t have the will to live anymore. Life  just isn’t turning out how I wanted and I am hopeless about it. The anxiety is still bad despite having the ativan. Now I just want to sleep

fireflywing
fireflywing
I don’t have specific advice. It’s good you’ve been following up with your doctor and therapist and doing the right things. In between, you need to pull some strength and tools to get through the anxiety and suicidal thoughts. We care about you. Please keep us posted. Hugs.
CatinMichigan
CatinMichigan
I agree with firefly. It's good that you're seeing your therapist, I hope you can resolve your suicidal thoughts out of the hospital. I've been lucky and have never been hospitalized for my suicidal thoughts/behaviors or anything psychiatric. I know what it's like to be in the psychiatric hospital from being a social worker for years for the mentally ill before I got really sick and diagnosed w/bipolar disorder. But, if your therapist thinks you need to be hospitalized, you may have to go into the hospital. Try to stay strong and think positive thoughts in place of your suicidal thoughts, if you can. I'm sending good thoughts and prayers your way.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I would really try to just take suicide off of the table as an option kisses..... We have suicidal thoughts..... That's a symptom of BP however a thought doesn't require an action

I work really hard simply to recognize it as a symptom.....

Gentle hug sweetie... I hope that you'll reach out if you need to..... Sleeping is good.... I like to get lost in sleep sometimes to......xo
dailystrengthuser57
dailystrengthuser57
I'm sorry you're feeling so hopeless. From what I've read on BPD it's normal to have cyclical fluctuations in mood. It might help to remind yourself each time of that fact & just know it will pass. I would suggest to keep up your treatment & counseling with close followup. Hugs.
MayB
MayB
So sorry to hear all this Kisses....I have spent a lot of time in my life struggling in the same land. I hope as well that suicide could be put off the table as a way of coping with sudden downs...

A healer once explained to me that suicide comes from the inability to see life other than black and white.

Kisses it sounds like you are doing the right thing in reaching out to your therapist...

Hoping and praying for the best possible result for you.
miamichic2119
miamichic2119
Here. Listening. Cheering for you.
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