Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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mya.133
mya.133

I've started spiraling and I wanna die , last year when depression hit me , it hit me like a boulder . I stopped taking to my friends I started fighting at school (alot) to the point I got sent away to Behavioral School . I isolated myself in my room I cried for death I even started cutting myself . After a month or two of feeling this way I felt ok . But last month it started again Idk what to do how to think or feel . Im just numb and lonely , and I feel even shitier for feeling this way because my life is fine . But for some weird reason I don't feel fine I wanna die . 

OlderCPer
OlderCPer
Hon, this is what we mean when we speak of Triggers. You've been down this path before and your brain remembers it. Your body remembers certain Triggers (warnings of things you did last time) so that you can tell you're headed for a Manic Ep. This way you can get control of it before it gets control of your life. You need to talk to your parents about what is going on, or speak with your Therapist, so he can adjust your meds or help you learn additional coping skills to deal with whats going on in your mind and body. The more open you are with your folks and Dr.'s about what's happening again, the more they can help you and you can get back to your everyday life. It takes a really strong person to stand up and ask for help. Don't give up and don't back down. Do whatever you need t do to get someone in your corner to help you find the help you need to get this manic epsisode p
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
agreed, you definately need to reach out and get help including medical input
arfie
arfie
Hello mya. Welcome to the forum. Sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. You are not alone. Yours is a familiar story here. Damned BP. It do give vicious bites for no apparent reason. Hope you feel safe to open up and share the struggle here. We are here for you.

Welcome aboard.
MayB
MayB
Hi Mya,

Sorry to hear about the depression it does hit like a big wave....you didn't say if you are on meds or seeing a therapist. Maybe time for a medication tweak? Maybe your therapist could see you more often?

Depression can get better don't quit before the good times come...((((hugs)))) I'm sorry you are in so much pain.....
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Hi and Welcome mya..... I agree that you need medical help for this... I would make an appt with your doctor or therapist....
Please hang on sweetie...... Don't take a permanent solution for a temporary problem.... There is good help to be had and stability to be found.... Big hug......xo
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