Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Yesterday I freaked myself out that I will relapse into a severe depressive/suicidal episode.
recently left inpatient hospitalization (one week stay) after I deemed myself unsafe and needing more help. This was after a 6 week depressive episode.
i am stable and working on improving everyday. I have a routine, and I’m working towards going back to work in November.
everyone is saying that I am improving and seem so much better than I was...I of course don’t really see it except shrug and say, “ well I’m not suicidal so that’s a good thing”
I’m scared of a relapse though. My husband has already said that our marriage can’t take it. Part of me doesn’t want to seem happy and “perfect” again because when I fall, it’ll be so much worse. Sarcasm and walls have always been my armor. But I’m scared to even be sad as he will perceive it as me being depressed or “mental”
Any advice? I’m new to being bipolar so I’m still at a loss :(
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
If you start having any symptoms call your doc for an appt... Adjustments can always be made
I would work on other coping skills..... gratitude journal... journal=ling to vent.... feeling gratitude.... exercise.... meditation or mindfulness... grounding techniques
You can look some of these up.... They're available on google..... Big hug and deep breaths
Don't borrow trouble sweetie.... We have a treatable disorder. and you're receiving treatment....xo
As for hubby, it's hard to see a loved one who 'looks ok' and have so much going on 'inside'......kind of like a duck on a beautiful lake so calm, under the water the webbed feet are going like crazy to move.
A therapy called DBT(Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) https://positivepsychology.com/dbt-dialectical-behavior-therapy/ was my saving Grace....not easy, takes lots of time and practice, but in the end there have been huge rewards in my life.
This is a book that might help your husband understand more about BP and be better able to cope. https://www.amazon.com/Loving-Someone-Bipolar-Disorder-Understanding/dp/1608822192
I do hope you will also find the time to be kind to yourself, no doubt this too will be a challenge, each day spend some time giving yourself Calm. Atm, I'm listening to this as I too have been in a really bad place for the last month or so with Huge Stress....I hope it helps :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkM-FjfN6Mc
Also, I use the journal to help me write out my feelings and thoughts to clarify....I do find insights and have the support of friends....Very Good Friends!