Do I lurk? No way. I'm too obnoxious. But charming and lovable as well. Right? RIGHT???

RIGHT!!!

(except for that obnoxious part...)

Oh, I am very obnoxious.

i remain completely unaware....

(my usual state of existence)

i'm here - don't know about lurkin though

here now. dh got in an accident at work, had to have 6 stitches across the bridge of the nose and cut his eyelid, had to go cross town to a plastic surgeon but he said since it was in the crease he would leave it alone and it would heal just fine. made me get out of my funk.

Boo...

haha!

I lurked for a long time before ever even joining. I have some major trust issues.

I"m out here.....just reading and browsing the board...

I'm not a lerker but I like reading the thoughts of others...

So here's my deli ma I can't start a thread because this blackberry permits me to do so. So this is like a secret thread I hope you find it

"My moods are not my own"
I like that my meds keep my moods @ bay, and that my paranoia is better. Whitchis a great feeling of freedom from myself. I feel as though my most personal feelings aren't as personal, most every thing is controlled by these medications. My thoughts are suppressed my moods are not my own.just here.
The side affects I experience are frustrating. I take lamictal and abilify. For me its frustration just remembering to take it. The other side of it is it has saved my life its just so boring day in and day out the same repitious routine. I'm complaing now... Why do I feel I need to feel those feelings of a pure rush, the kind where nothing can stop you from anything your gonna do it regardless of the consequences. Its a thrill for me. I've noticed that's why my past is so destroyed. Everyone I come into contact with someone be it my own sister. I have squashed a lot of relationships, now I'm rambling on sorry for this one... I just miss parts of the old confident me. So for anyone who wanted to read and found this thanks for listening.
Kaytee

here...and trying not to fall off the edge,