Great big squishy hug for you sweetie... I'm glad you didn't spend a lot of money while in this state....I've done it and you pay for it for a long time afterwards..
I hope you feel some calm soon...xo

That hypo mania is a booger bear! It is a very positive step to be able to recognize it. Have you started experimenting with things to help you through it?

So or no, hope it settles for you soon.

Hypo states get me into more financial mess!! I am glad you didn't make the purchase and maybe the hypomania will calm down soon. It's a tough road to walk. Big hugs for you!!

It sure is a booger bear! Got me bad this time.....damn it!!!!

Arfie I don't know what to do to get through it actually, open to any ideas though. I just cried for hours and yelled some too now I am just sad.....sigh

Thanks for the support everyone...appreciate it very much. I'm sure I will sleep better than I have been after all this chaos happening here. Wears a person out.....:-(

Do you use any treatment for your hypomania? I used to experience full blown psychotic mania but lithium took it away. I know that the emotional cost of dealing with any kind of mania can be devastating so why put yourself in that position?

So sorry, I've been there! In fact, kinda there now - I just bought cushions for my outside furntiture - 50% off, and I ONLY spent $82 - what a savings!!! Well, except I might have one cook-out is oct, and that purchase broke me for the month.... oy!

$1500 sewing machine? I know you wanted it, but most people can't purchase it, you are not alone - shit, I couldn't purchase a $1500 car! LOL

I know it is disappointing, and ONE DAY it will be funny, and MAYBE one day - you can go and BUY it - I mean, we can be broke with things, or broke without..... : )

Thanks Gina.....and I am glad you got nice cushions for your furniture I bet it looks great!! Now you can enjoy the outdoors who cares if you might only have one cookout!!! smile

Tommy the pdoc has his hands tied.....doesn't want to mess with my meds too much because I am as stable as I have been in years even though I am hypo alot.....I have been most of my life so it's kinda my norm. I've been on just about all the meds out there but the newer APs that have come out and well they say I am very hard to treat.

I know it's alot for a machine but I'd never need another for as long as I live! Going to save what I can and one day still hope to get one, I just want a machine that I can sew quilts on because I want to join the quilting quild here in town and learn from them how to make beautiful quilts, that was my plan anyway. All hope is not lost!!!

Oh, poo. Sorry, tats - I Hate when that happens. (I have that - and by now, seems like we should Know reality will set in, and it's gonna hurt...but we don't. And it Does hurt)

Man, the grey hairs I have gotten from stuff Just Like that! And, like SunCloud said, I'm glad when I've actually Not bought "whatever" it was I couldn't afford....but that's All I'm glad about, right then.

Like you, I'm left standing at the altar of whatever dream I had, wondering how I'm Ever gonna live through it.

But I do. And you do. And you will - Deb, you're such an Amazing and Creative crafter that you'll find some other things you can Afford to buy, and make more Wonderful things to be proud of!

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STORY: (you know I can't shut up!)

I play this game with my sister these days, Deb. I say "game", because it's the Only way I can handle it. See, she's bipolar (and older), but she has always been in Total denial.

So she'll come up with this GREAT idea about how she can help me make money. And she'll offer to let me come over, use her computer, she'll help me buy stuff, etc, etc - and since I'm bipolar that makes me hypomanic too, and it goes on this way for about 2-4 weeks....

Then, she Bails. Completely. Because she's bipolar. And she 'changes her mind', or she runs out of money, or she just decides she's too Depressed for me to come over....get it?

And I know it, by now...it's almost Funny, because when she calls and says "Come over and help me get this load of plants ready for the market, and I'll pay you!!".........

...I get my butt over there NOW, because if I wait 'til tomorrow?

She will TOTALLY be out of money. She will have found some cases of pancake syrup on sale or something, and will have spent, like, $300 on SYRUP. And so she won't need me for plants.


....But, Deb? I look at her, and I look Carefully - because, even though I don't behave like That, I wonder

How I Look To Others.

Like a person that is all hyped up over one thing today, and giving up, all freaked out and depressed the next day?

I don't feel that way to Me. But I think I Might just look that way, to those strange people out there who Don't have hypomania or depression or mood swings.

And then I shudder, and have a little more compassion for people like my sister. Hoping the Others will have compassion for Me.

Okay, end of weird story. lol
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I Truly hope you can get a Fabulous sewing machine before too long. Meanwhile, I've known about your crafts and projects for Years - and remember when you first posted a couple of purses and things in your pix here? (WoW)

I've always thought you are a Truly Talented and Amazing person, with or without a $1500 machine.

Mary Anne :)