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so yesterday - i know this isnt the exact forum to post, but why the hell not because i like this community i feel safe here and i want to share my experience with somebody !!!
so yesterday me and a group of friends took this 2-meo-dalt a tryptomine pschedelic drug that is quite new and quite experimental. for my first trip experience apparently this is quite a weird one to go with but it was absolutely amazing.
we took it at 4.30pm in wentwood ( a forest near us ) and we had a hut and a little sitting down area where we put a blanket and some music and we made a fire. at about 5pm jess started to come up and stood up, then it hit her and she started twsiting out (in a good way) then as though like contagiously spread through the air we all became tripped after her, me and my friend mia were last to come up but it was great when we did.
i stood in this open space looking at the sky focusing on things i'd never thought to look at before, that twig, so beautiful and red ? and then it felt like time had moved so far and that i'd been staring for long. my hands feel detatched from my body like they werent mine i felt like i'd fallen down a hole and everyone was so far away. but so close. the birds twitered in my ear and it felt like they were right inside my head, only it felt empty and peaceful in my head, but rushed and chaotic at the same time.
i sat down for a while, when the others went off to vomit because they felt ill (common side affect) i didnt' however. i stared at the fire, seeing all the twisty yellow and orange and black flames licking around eachother holding hands with their firey tongues flicking at me like snakes, it was odd but i didnt feel disturbed only interested.
they came back laughing, we all huddled together laughing about the thoughts in our head and i seemed to be on a telepathic level with everyone, we didnt even need to speak it's as though we all shared the same train of disjointed thoughts.
every thought span into the next and every meaning of that last thought seemed to come into reality. i bit into some chocolate and it felt like mud in my mouth so i spat it out.
it started to go darker and colder but it still felt like morning inside my mind and i felt like i'd opened up a door to a new life outside of this ordinary existance, seeing things that only the trained eye could ever think to see. i went for a pee behind the tree. and saw loads of ants marching up the bark, i looked at them for ages fascinated, then i was stood in their nest.
the pee was strange. i saw the steam coming off and floating into the air, i saw every particle of my pee spraying onto the leaves and grass around, it was madness.
theres more but i cant even begin to explain the wonders of yesterdays adventure....best part is though :) i've got more to see and more to feel and more to enlighten myself with.
i just feel at peace :)
(SORRY ITS SO LONG) xxxxx
so yesterday me and a group of friends took this 2-meo-dalt a tryptomine pschedelic drug that is quite new and quite experimental. for my first trip experience apparently this is quite a weird one to go with but it was absolutely amazing.
we took it at 4.30pm in wentwood ( a forest near us ) and we had a hut and a little sitting down area where we put a blanket and some music and we made a fire. at about 5pm jess started to come up and stood up, then it hit her and she started twsiting out (in a good way) then as though like contagiously spread through the air we all became tripped after her, me and my friend mia were last to come up but it was great when we did.
i stood in this open space looking at the sky focusing on things i'd never thought to look at before, that twig, so beautiful and red ? and then it felt like time had moved so far and that i'd been staring for long. my hands feel detatched from my body like they werent mine i felt like i'd fallen down a hole and everyone was so far away. but so close. the birds twitered in my ear and it felt like they were right inside my head, only it felt empty and peaceful in my head, but rushed and chaotic at the same time.
i sat down for a while, when the others went off to vomit because they felt ill (common side affect) i didnt' however. i stared at the fire, seeing all the twisty yellow and orange and black flames licking around eachother holding hands with their firey tongues flicking at me like snakes, it was odd but i didnt feel disturbed only interested.
they came back laughing, we all huddled together laughing about the thoughts in our head and i seemed to be on a telepathic level with everyone, we didnt even need to speak it's as though we all shared the same train of disjointed thoughts.
every thought span into the next and every meaning of that last thought seemed to come into reality. i bit into some chocolate and it felt like mud in my mouth so i spat it out.
it started to go darker and colder but it still felt like morning inside my mind and i felt like i'd opened up a door to a new life outside of this ordinary existance, seeing things that only the trained eye could ever think to see. i went for a pee behind the tree. and saw loads of ants marching up the bark, i looked at them for ages fascinated, then i was stood in their nest.
the pee was strange. i saw the steam coming off and floating into the air, i saw every particle of my pee spraying onto the leaves and grass around, it was madness.
theres more but i cant even begin to explain the wonders of yesterdays adventure....best part is though :) i've got more to see and more to feel and more to enlighten myself with.
i just feel at peace :)
(SORRY ITS SO LONG) xxxxx
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